[Sasuke doesn't move closer, but he also doesn't try to get away.] Entrapta. [It isn't exactly a question.]
It wouldn't have bothered me if she lived. She was... helping a friend. I can't fault her for that. But I'm sorry. That... I had a hand in removing her from the game.
Ray had a wish, too. But she killed him, taking away his chance to play. Her chance should have been taken, too. But we were stupid, missing the signs. She got away. No matter what reason, she didn't have to kill Ray.
If I have to shoulder the burden of removing her myself, I accept that. So she wouldn't hurt anyone else. And so no one else would have to do it instead.
[He frowns, even if doing so hurt.]
Don't worry. They'll punish me like they should. Your team is together now. They'll be able to help them.
[Sean runs forward, slamming his hands into Sasuke's chest. It's a force much stronger than any child's should be, but not enough that it should do much more than bruise him.]
Ray was my friend, too, and you, you...you're my team, too! Revenge is so stupid, Sasuke! You don't know that anyone else was going to hurt, but this made sure more people would, have, and now someone has to be punished!
[He's not sure how he isn't yeeted, but thanks that saving grace. The hurt is something he welcomes, and he staggers back a step or so. It's something he feels he deserves.]
It was my "justice" for Ray. Whatever his wish was... I know it wasn't to become livestock again. He should have had that chance.
[Gently, he settles a hand on top of Sean's head, resting it there.]
They'll find me. I'm counting on it. No matter what Senri and the others do. I knew I would be punish when I accepted. I'm not sorry about Catra. But... I am sorry about Entrapta.
[Nothing hurts him quite like Sean upset. He understands... how Itachi must have felt. Now, he's in Itachi's place, and it doesn't hurt any less. Heat stings his eyes. Slowly, he crouches down, trying to take one of Sean's hands to hold.] Look. [His voice is as gentle as he can make it.]
You won't lose me. My fate is in Mizuki's hands. Whether I should be punished or spared, it's up to them. I might be gone for a little while, but not forever.
[His face and head and neck feels like it's being wrapped in sandpaper, but he doesn't care. Not at all. His hands settle on Sean's back before he slowly encircles Sean in a hug.
He doesn't care. He buries his face in Sean's shoulder.] Don't get in trouble. [He's the otouto, but he'll just have to be the niisan here.]
You aren't alone. And... neither am I. It took a long time for me to realize that. To... accept it. I still believe in the world you want.
[He leans back some.]
I'll... make it up to you. Give me a task, no matter how difficult. If I continue playing, I'll... finish it by the end of next week. Or... you can curse me. Whatever you want, I'll accept.
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It wouldn't have bothered me if she lived. She was... helping a friend. I can't fault her for that. But I'm sorry. That... I had a hand in removing her from the game.
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[Sean shakes his head from side to side, folding his arms over his head, his eyes shutting tightly.]
Why? There wasn't any reason to go after anyone! Couldn't you...couldn't you just let it lie?
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If I have to shoulder the burden of removing her myself, I accept that. So she wouldn't hurt anyone else. And so no one else would have to do it instead.
[He frowns, even if doing so hurt.]
Don't worry. They'll punish me like they should. Your team is together now. They'll be able to help them.
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[Sean runs forward, slamming his hands into Sasuke's chest. It's a force much stronger than any child's should be, but not enough that it should do much more than bruise him.]
Ray was my friend, too, and you, you...you're my team, too! Revenge is so stupid, Sasuke! You don't know that anyone else was going to hurt, but this made sure more people would, have, and now someone has to be punished!
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It was my "justice" for Ray. Whatever his wish was... I know it wasn't to become livestock again. He should have had that chance.
[Gently, he settles a hand on top of Sean's head, resting it there.]
They'll find me. I'm counting on it. No matter what Senri and the others do. I knew I would be punish when I accepted. I'm not sorry about Catra. But... I am sorry about Entrapta.
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[His voice teeters between anger and sorrow, his expression similarly torn.]
I don't understand...I don't understand any of this. It's too...t-too much, it hurts! Sasuke!
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[Nothing hurts him quite like Sean upset. He understands... how Itachi must have felt. Now, he's in Itachi's place, and it doesn't hurt any less. Heat stings his eyes. Slowly, he crouches down, trying to take one of Sean's hands to hold.] Look. [His voice is as gentle as he can make it.]
You won't lose me. My fate is in Mizuki's hands. Whether I should be punished or spared, it's up to them. I might be gone for a little while, but not forever.
You're doing good. Don't give up.
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[He looks at Sasuke's hand around his, and hiccuping, he abruptly throws his arms around Sasuke in a hug.]
I won't. I won't give up no matter how awful I feel, or how alone. So keep your promise, too.
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He doesn't care. He buries his face in Sean's shoulder.] Don't get in trouble. [He's the otouto, but he'll just have to be the niisan here.]
You aren't alone. And... neither am I. It took a long time for me to realize that. To... accept it. I still believe in the world you want.
[He leans back some.]
I'll... make it up to you. Give me a task, no matter how difficult. If I continue playing, I'll... finish it by the end of next week. Or... you can curse me. Whatever you want, I'll accept.
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I just want...you to come back.
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Okay. I won't give up then. [He gives Sean a small smile.] I'll see it through until the end.