senri said that he'd get all of his tears out yesterday. and he thought he did. he made it through trial without letting too many of his emotions get in the way - aside from one slip. but he wore his mask as confidently as he could, played with the shreds of a script that he had in front of him, and did his best.
but at the end of the day, he still lost a friend.
and he's losing another person he liked.
so when sincerity gives him a hug, senri cries. he cries a lot, and he wants nothing more than to figure out how to make it stop]
[There isn't much he can do to stop the tears. Oh, sure - technically, it would be within his powers to magically dry his eyes. But feelings demand to be felt, and taking away his tears before he'd fully processed his pain wouldn't do him any favors.
Sincerity kept his arms around Senri and let him cry it out.]
...I'm sorry, Sen-chan. I'd have stopped it if I could.
but eventually he finds his words again, right at the fringes of his calm.]
.... I know. I know you would've.
[and he pulls back eventually, even if his fingers clutch on for a second as if there's nothing more that he'd like more than to just be held for another hour.]
Can I do anything? Can I do anything at all? For her. Or for the Kresniks - or Sasuke. What am I supposed to do next?
[Sincerity catches the way his fingers clutch on tightly for a moment more, and Sincerity takes that as his cue to take Senri's hand. He gives the back of it a little pat that is probably meant to be reassuring.]
Shiki-chan is ... resting now. For her, we'll set everything right at the end of this. [His voice is gentle. He knows very well that it hurts to have someone taken from you like this - so he can, at the very least, promise that she'll be okay at the end of the competition. It doesn't change the fact that people are hurting now, but he'd like to be able to give them something to look forward to in the end.] Sasuke-kun... for him, I'm not sure. I think right now he needs a friend most of all.
[Help the emo ninja.]
Those two brothers... I don't think either one of them is going to take this lying down. Have you talked to many of the other gods, Senri-kun? Love-chan would be the best to appeal to about this. If they haven't given speaking with her a try, to might urge them to.
when you had a tag written all day but didn't press send wtf
[taking his hand helps. senri listens closely to sincerity's words as if they're instructions given by a director. these are the things that he's supposed to do now, because sincerity is a god and would know better than him hopefully. that's how this game is supposed to work, right?
he listens.]
... I can try to talk to her. Would it work even if I'm one of yours?
[he's still trying to understand how it's meant to be done on a day like this.
and more than that....]
What do you mean - set everything right for her? I was going to ask... can you take her on as one of your followers? She told me that she wanted to choose you from the start. We were going to be on the same team and help you win! I don't.... I don't want her to lose the chance at her wish, just because someone did this to her.
You can try to. But, if you ask me, Sen-chan... She might be more swayed by one of the brothers, since it affects them most of all.
[Sincerity says this gently, at least.]
We're going to bring her back after all this. It will be like what happened this weekend never happened... like it was all just a bad dream. But I can't make her my follower now. A participant can only choose a new god on Sundays, and he is no longer a part of this contest. ...for her to get her wish, Ambition is going to have to win.
Ah, that's not quite what I meant, Sen-chan. You still remember bad dreams when you wake up, but if you're hurt in the dream, you won't be hurt anymore life. It's like that.
Ah, okay. [he.... accepts that, he supposes. he relaxes considerably at the explanation, because - ] .... If it meant that she didn't have to remember what happened, I'd accept it but... I would've been really sad if Shiks completely forgot me.
[he wants friends )': ]
And I guess... there's no way for me to take on her wish with my own, huh.
[it must be hard for a lying liar who lies to make friends :( ]
Unfortunately not. One follower, one wish. You could ask for her wish instead of your own, but... your wish is something you want badly enough to have agreed to be here.
I'm the god of Sincerity, and even I'm not sure I could agree to give up something I'd want that much.
Senri pauses at that - because of course he does. There's something he wants more than anything else in the world and it's right in front of him if he can just keep doing what he's doing and keep up his multitude of lies.
[Sincerity pats him on the back. He sounds sad when he speaks.]
It really sucks. [Which... Is a simple way of summing it up, but hey, it's true.] When I win this, I'm going to make sure no one has to go through this sort of thing ever again.
[It's a major part of the reason why Sincerity is taking part in this game at all.]
They're still going to be part of the pantheon, ruling over their aspects. But I'll have the power to keep them in line if they try anything, and the world will be mine to craft.
I'm pretty sure you've heard by now... but I've been meeting with the other gods - since I've been told that it's good to get to know you all. I'm worried about Beauty and Merriment... really worried.
I just want to make sure that they'll be okay, as long as you win.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
WEEK 1, POST-TRIAL
He doesn't even wait for him to go somewhere else. Instead, he appears in the altar room behind him and gives him a big hug. :( ]
no subject
senri said that he'd get all of his tears out yesterday. and he thought he did. he made it through trial without letting too many of his emotions get in the way - aside from one slip. but he wore his mask as confidently as he could, played with the shreds of a script that he had in front of him, and did his best.
but at the end of the day, he still lost a friend.
and he's losing another person he liked.
so when sincerity gives him a hug, senri cries. he cries a lot, and he wants nothing more than to figure out how to make it stop]
no subject
Sincerity kept his arms around Senri and let him cry it out.]
...I'm sorry, Sen-chan. I'd have stopped it if I could.
no subject
but eventually he finds his words again, right at the fringes of his calm.]
.... I know. I know you would've.
[and he pulls back eventually, even if his fingers clutch on for a second as if there's nothing more that he'd like more than to just be held for another hour.]
Can I do anything? Can I do anything at all? For her. Or for the Kresniks - or Sasuke. What am I supposed to do next?
no subject
Shiki-chan is ... resting now. For her, we'll set everything right at the end of this. [His voice is gentle. He knows very well that it hurts to have someone taken from you like this - so he can, at the very least, promise that she'll be okay at the end of the competition. It doesn't change the fact that people are hurting now, but he'd like to be able to give them something to look forward to in the end.] Sasuke-kun... for him, I'm not sure. I think right now he needs a friend most of all.
[Help the emo ninja.]
Those two brothers... I don't think either one of them is going to take this lying down. Have you talked to many of the other gods, Senri-kun? Love-chan would be the best to appeal to about this. If they haven't given speaking with her a try, to might urge them to.
when you had a tag written all day but didn't press send wtf
he listens.]
... I can try to talk to her. Would it work even if I'm one of yours?
[he's still trying to understand how it's meant to be done on a day like this.
and more than that....]
What do you mean - set everything right for her? I was going to ask... can you take her on as one of your followers? She told me that she wanted to choose you from the start. We were going to be on the same team and help you win! I don't.... I don't want her to lose the chance at her wish, just because someone did this to her.
oh nooo
[Sincerity says this gently, at least.]
We're going to bring her back after all this. It will be like what happened this weekend never happened... like it was all just a bad dream. But I can't make her my follower now. A participant can only choose a new god on Sundays, and he is no longer a part of this contest. ...for her to get her wish, Ambition is going to have to win.
no subject
there's a lot he didn't expect, actually.]
- wait, we won't remember anything that happened here if we lose? Will we remember if we win?
no subject
[it was a shitty metaphor]
no subject
[he wants friends )': ]
And I guess... there's no way for me to take on her wish with my own, huh.
no subject
Unfortunately not. One follower, one wish. You could ask for her wish instead of your own, but... your wish is something you want badly enough to have agreed to be here.
I'm the god of Sincerity, and even I'm not sure I could agree to give up something I'd want that much.
no subject
Senri pauses at that - because of course he does. There's something he wants more than anything else in the world and it's right in front of him if he can just keep doing what he's doing and keep up his multitude of lies.
He closes his eyes, and he admits it quietly.]
.... No, I - I can't either.
[but god if he doesn't sound guilty over it]
.... thanks, Cheri....
no subject
It really sucks. [Which... Is a simple way of summing it up, but hey, it's true.] When I win this, I'm going to make sure no one has to go through this sort of thing ever again.
no subject
[Senri's smile is weak, but it's a smile nonetheless.]
You get to build the world on your own, right? What are the other gods going to do?
no subject
[It's a major part of the reason why Sincerity is taking part in this game at all.]
They're still going to be part of the pantheon, ruling over their aspects. But I'll have the power to keep them in line if they try anything, and the world will be mine to craft.
no subject
[he nods, seeming to accept this.]
I'm pretty sure you've heard by now... but I've been meeting with the other gods - since I've been told that it's good to get to know you all. I'm worried about Beauty and Merriment... really worried.
I just want to make sure that they'll be okay, as long as you win.
no subject
[Sincerity say this as soothingly as he can manage.]
Beauty-kun and I are good friends. And Merriment-kun's a nice guy - I doubt we'll have any trouble working together once I'm in charge!
no subject
senri won't touch that for now]
... Okay. I'll keep working hard, and see who I can sway to join our team this coming week too.
no subject
[A bloodless victory, at that!}