I thought about that too... if I stay with you, when everyone expects me to go. Then everyone would think that someone decided to go to you instead, and it'd be just as confusing to know where I may or may not be.
[ . . . ]
But Shishimaru won't forgive me ever, at all, if I don't go somewhere else, for even just one week.
Ray-kun already thinks that if you're with Ruin, you're with her until you try to leave and die. I can't take that risk. And Disorder suuuuper hates you. If she gets voted for, I don't think I could win her favor fast enough that she won't throw me to the wolves before I can make it back to you.
[sincerity is. practically sparkling. he squeezes senri's hand]
I bet you could make her think we had a falling-out after the trial today, with that paper. She'd jump at the chance to take you, and would probably keep you alive just to spite me.
I'm going to ask around and see if there's any other people who are desperate for people on their gods' team - and see if they're willing to give me something in exchange.
Only if it's the last week and they look more like they're gonna win the whole thing, but they have to promise to take care of you.
[ . . . . ]
I know I'm not always the most honest, but... I don't like being disloyal, Cheri. I would stay if I thought I could. I just... want to make sure you know that.
he doesn't know if it's okay, because he doesn't feel like it's okay. he actually doesn't know if he has much more to talk about, but he doesn't want to leave. because the next time he sees sincerity again, he won't be their follower and that -
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and senri will reach both hands out, offering as bright a smile as he can manage]
If I'm safe, then I can sneak back onto your team as soon as possible. Maybe I'll even be able to bring friends back with me.
No one will suspect a thing.
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[Sincerity takes his hands, and (probably) smiles from behind his mask.]
Although... I'm sure most people are assuming you'll defect, don't you think?
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[ . . . ]
But Shishimaru won't forgive me ever, at all, if I don't go somewhere else, for even just one week.
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[Hmm.]
Well... we can't have that. Let's brainstorm, then. Which god would people assume you're least likely to go to?
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[he is a dUMB BITCH BABY]
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honey]
One of those three is where no one would ever think to look for you, then.
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I know.
.... but I don't know if I could do it....
Ray-kun already thinks that if you're with Ruin, you're with her until you try to leave and die. I can't take that risk. And Disorder suuuuper hates you. If she gets voted for, I don't think I could win her favor fast enough that she won't throw me to the wolves before I can make it back to you.
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[sincerity is. practically sparkling. he squeezes senri's hand]
I bet you could make her think we had a falling-out after the trial today, with that paper. She'd jump at the chance to take you, and would probably keep you alive just to spite me.
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Why does Cheri want me to be miserable so badly...?!
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How does the saying go... "Friends close, enemies closer"? To stay safe, you have to get closer to them.
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.... I'll think about it.
I'm going to ask around and see if there's any other people who are desperate for people on their gods' team - and see if they're willing to give me something in exchange.
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I know. That's what I think too, even though...
[yeah, it's tempting to run to Beauty.]
And then they'd try to steal me from you for good, and I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if I made things even rockier over there.
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Would they be able to succeed?
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[ . . . . ]
I know I'm not always the most honest, but... I don't like being disloyal, Cheri. I would stay if I thought I could. I just... want to make sure you know that.
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he doesn't know if it's okay, because he doesn't feel like it's okay. he actually doesn't know if he has much more to talk about, but he doesn't want to leave. because the next time he sees sincerity again, he won't be their follower and that -
ah, that stings.]
... please wait for me.
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[he squeezes his hands]
I still intend to win this.
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[and he'll squeeze sincerity's hands back]
We can still hang out next week, right? I have an emo to deliver to you.
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Mine too, because I'll get to see you again.
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See? Much better.