Ambition is always someone that I've extended my hand to.
[For a moment, Piety looks out toward the lake again.]
She's just a misguided girl...and I think she's terribly lonely. It's been hard to reach her, she's resistant to kindness just as much as she craves it, but I know that she's a good person. I know that inside of her, she can do amazing, wonderful things.
[...]
So that's why, I'll never draw back that hand. It'll be there for her, always, until she's ready to take it.
... I think she can't see it then. But I'll work hard too, so that she can be reached. I think she's been able to open a little bit of her heart to me, but... I'll keep working on it, so she can see the other people who are trying to reach her too.
[ . . . ]
Do you think it's possible to reach Disorder, Cunning, or Ruin that way?
Yes. Without a doubt, I do. Everyone has a heart...everyone has something that they hold dear to them, even if they've concealed it so deeply they've forgotten it. Cunning can be ruthless, but he and I actually have a lot of similar ideals...it's just the manner in which we approach them that sets us seemingly so far apart.
[They sigh.]
Ruin's tricky, but as frightening as she may seem, I fully believe that her nature is fueled by a strong, unshakable ability to love and be loved. And Disorder...
[They pause again.]
She's just like Ambition in so many ways, but has had more years to let that loneliness influence her. They were all just normal people, not very long ago. People who feel happiness, warmth, sadness, and anger. I know it's easy to...judge and misunderstand, but I hope if you can give Ambition a chance, you, and everyone else, can find it in yourselves to give the rest of them a chance, as well.
.... I'll let people know. I want to reach out to them too, but I don't know if it'll be safe for me to do so. Maybe if I can find other people who would be able to get in touch with them better....
... is that okay?
I keep... outsourcing.... and I don't know if that's the right thing to do, if it'll be more trouble in time.
I don't think that it's the wrong thing to do, as long as you're doing it honestly.
[Don't lie about fake offerings, Senri!]
I think all of them will be happy to be approached by people with an open mind, instead of feeling that they never got a fair chance from the start. Even though I don't want them to win, because I think that they need to be united underneath the scope of a different perspective...I don't want them to leave this feeling more jaded than they started. I want them to learn, the way that I'm learning, just by being able to talk openly with so many wonderful people.
Yes, it is...and that's why this is no easy decision to make.
[Piety's voice is gentle.]
Yes, that's what I'm hoping for...what I believe in. It's easy to get lost in the thoughts of winning, who deserves it or who can give out the best promises...but for us, for all the people who are counting on us back on our world, this is of dire importance.
The world we reside over, of course. It's a brand new world, so our responsibilities, as they are now, consist mostly of shaping it...but eventually, with hope, it will thrive with a booming population. And everyone who resides on that world will be under our care.
Few things are that easy in most places. But in this case, I didn't mean that there are particular rules or conditions that would keep us from our homes.
[...]
I only mean that in my case, at least, I've already died where I came from. I have nowhere else to go.
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[he's not really the most selfless person. generous and loyal, sure, but there's always an undercurrent of looking out for himself immediately after his friends.]
... did you not have a chance to be, where you came from before this? I think it... depends on how you grew up too.
No...I had a short, unconventional life, much of which kept me confined outside of my will for the furthering of corrupt political agendas. I lived...believing, up until the end, that I was someone who could easily be replaced or forgotten, by virtue of the reasons behind my birth.
[...]
But as long as it was for my own reasons, even if I hurt myself in the process, I was always happy to make sacrifices for the people around me.
[Sounding sad, Piety crouches and presses his hand into the snow.]
I don't want...to hurt anyone, least of all by my own actions. I've made that mistake in the past, leaving my friends behind in anguish, and I don't want to do it again. There are people here who care about me just as much as I care about them, and that's an honor I don't intend to take for granted.
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[For a moment, Piety looks out toward the lake again.]
She's just a misguided girl...and I think she's terribly lonely. It's been hard to reach her, she's resistant to kindness just as much as she craves it, but I know that she's a good person. I know that inside of her, she can do amazing, wonderful things.
[...]
So that's why, I'll never draw back that hand. It'll be there for her, always, until she's ready to take it.
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... I think she can't see it then. But I'll work hard too, so that she can be reached. I think she's been able to open a little bit of her heart to me, but... I'll keep working on it, so she can see the other people who are trying to reach her too.
[ . . . ]
Do you think it's possible to reach Disorder, Cunning, or Ruin that way?
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[They sigh.]
Ruin's tricky, but as frightening as she may seem, I fully believe that her nature is fueled by a strong, unshakable ability to love and be loved. And Disorder...
[They pause again.]
She's just like Ambition in so many ways, but has had more years to let that loneliness influence her. They were all just normal people, not very long ago. People who feel happiness, warmth, sadness, and anger. I know it's easy to...judge and misunderstand, but I hope if you can give Ambition a chance, you, and everyone else, can find it in yourselves to give the rest of them a chance, as well.
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.... I'll let people know. I want to reach out to them too, but I don't know if it'll be safe for me to do so. Maybe if I can find other people who would be able to get in touch with them better....
... is that okay?
I keep... outsourcing.... and I don't know if that's the right thing to do, if it'll be more trouble in time.
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[Don't lie about fake offerings, Senri!]
I think all of them will be happy to be approached by people with an open mind, instead of feeling that they never got a fair chance from the start. Even though I don't want them to win, because I think that they need to be united underneath the scope of a different perspective...I don't want them to leave this feeling more jaded than they started. I want them to learn, the way that I'm learning, just by being able to talk openly with so many wonderful people.
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that said he's.... sighing....]
Being responsible for other gods is... really tough.
.... I'll tell people, and maybe we can make this work into something better. A resolution instead of just endless competition and bickering... right?
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[Piety's voice is gentle.]
Yes, that's what I'm hoping for...what I believe in. It's easy to get lost in the thoughts of winning, who deserves it or who can give out the best promises...but for us, for all the people who are counting on us back on our world, this is of dire importance.
[So this is like, group counseling...]
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People who are... counting on you? What do you mean?
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[he can't imagine,,]
That's - definitely a lot of responsibility. You all really have no way of going home now that you've become gods, huh....
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.... of course it's not. Because nothing's really easy here, is it?
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[...]
I only mean that in my case, at least, I've already died where I came from. I have nowhere else to go.
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stings]
.... I'm sorry.
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It's alright. As long as I can continue to help those around me...I don't have any reason to be sad.
[I mean, he has a lot of reasons to be sad, but.]
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.... you haven't thought about helping yourself, even now?
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[he's not really the most selfless person. generous and loyal, sure, but there's always an undercurrent of looking out for himself immediately after his friends.]
... did you not have a chance to be, where you came from before this? I think it... depends on how you grew up too.
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No...I had a short, unconventional life, much of which kept me confined outside of my will for the furthering of corrupt political agendas. I lived...believing, up until the end, that I was someone who could easily be replaced or forgotten, by virtue of the reasons behind my birth.
[...]
But as long as it was for my own reasons, even if I hurt myself in the process, I was always happy to make sacrifices for the people around me.
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That's not true here. You know that, right? I'm sure Ishirin-san has told you but -
You won't be replaced or forgotten. So please don't try to sacrifice yourself or... I think that sort of thing will only leave sad memories behind.
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[Sounding sad, Piety crouches and presses his hand into the snow.]
I don't want...to hurt anyone, least of all by my own actions. I've made that mistake in the past, leaving my friends behind in anguish, and I don't want to do it again. There are people here who care about me just as much as I care about them, and that's an honor I don't intend to take for granted.
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... mm, okay. As long as you know that, then I'm content. But I'll come back every now and then for the periodic reminder, okay?