[and he hums happily at that, squeezing onto justice's hands for a moment longer]
Do you think you'll be able to play with me a lot this week, if I join your team for a little bit? I'm trying to play Hide and Seek with people who might want to find me.
Buuuuuut - this is important, okay - I don't know if I can stay forever. I want you to win, but you know there's something that I want, right? So I have to figure out how to get it.
... and if someone wasn't lying to me, I think.... you would get what I want more than anyone else.
[Sasuke was right, because Justice sounds like he's absolutely about to burst into tears as he launches himself against Senri's middle.]
Thank you, thank you! You won't regret it--I...I'm learning how to be a better leader every day, and I'll work so hard to make you happy, and make all your wishes come true, okay?
senri will laugh again as he wraps his arms around justice, lifting him right off the ground and into a close hug]
I know! You already make me suuuuper happy.
.... and I want to figure out how to make everyone in the game happy, gods and participants alike. If there's a way to do that... do you think you'll be able to support me?
Well, for pretty much everyone, they designed their spaces based off of things they knew from home...like living memories. But...I don't have any of that, so, so...I made it up.
[He sounds ashamed, even if it's not really anything all that shameful.]
there's a part where he pauses in his rocking - apparently surprised. and then he'll just. hold justice closer to him, giving him a very warm, very tight hug.]
....
I liked it.
The place that you made up.
[ . . . . ]
Because I... I don't have anything like that either. The normal house, with a family. That sort of really quiet, peaceful, warm place.... So being able to pretend this week, with the little group that I made play house with me....
[senri whispers the last words, full of gratitude even as fragile as they are:]
But...I'm really glad that...that you got to have that. Maybe now you won't have to pretend anymore, because you know what it's like. So you can make a real one for yourself...right?
I don't know. I'm really good at pretend. I think you've seen that, because I.... don't know how to make anything real. So I go based on what I've seen in stories, and lines that I've delivered before. It makes it hard... to know how to say the right thing, to be genuine with people.
[he continues to hold Justice close, and it's only after all his stage acting that he's able to keep his voice level again, despite the emotion clear in it]
.... but we can try. You and me. We'll try to do a little bit more than pretend, if that's what you want.
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Well that's fitting, because I don't think that you messed up at all.
What makes you think that you did....?
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[Justice pauses, but then puts their hands in Senri's.]
Mizuki Ioti said that this was my brand of "justice" and that...it was disgusting...they looked at me like I was the worst person in the whole world.
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Mizuki-san cursed me and put me in that position because they didn't think some things through.
So I think that we can say it balances out.
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[ ;( ]
I never wanted to make anybody mad. I just wanted to make friends, and show how much I care.
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So... that's why I need your help, if that's okay.
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[Justice perches up on their toes.]
I'll always do anything I can to help!
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[and he hums happily at that, squeezing onto justice's hands for a moment longer]
Do you think you'll be able to play with me a lot this week, if I join your team for a little bit? I'm trying to play Hide and Seek with people who might want to find me.
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[Justice goes stock still, his hands tightening inside of Senri's.]
You want to join my team? F-For real?
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[and he can't help but laugh]
Buuuuuut - this is important, okay - I don't know if I can stay forever. I want you to win, but you know there's something that I want, right? So I have to figure out how to get it.
... and if someone wasn't lying to me, I think.... you would get what I want more than anyone else.
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Thank you, thank you! You won't regret it--I...I'm learning how to be a better leader every day, and I'll work so hard to make you happy, and make all your wishes come true, okay?
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senri will laugh again as he wraps his arms around justice, lifting him right off the ground and into a close hug]
I know! You already make me suuuuper happy.
.... and I want to figure out how to make everyone in the game happy, gods and participants alike. If there's a way to do that... do you think you'll be able to support me?
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[Happiness...for all!]
That means, that means all of us, even anyone who's mean!
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[and senri will press a quick kiss to the top of justice's mask at that, affectionate and sweet.]
I like the sound of that a lot.
Do you get along with the other gods too? Because I think you know how much I love Cheri and Beauty....
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[Shy boy.]
I get nervous, because everyone...everyone around me is so beautiful. Especially them.
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.... have you heard that as long as your heart shines, honest and true, then you're beautiful no matter what?
And I think you have one of the prettiest hearts I've ever seen.
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[RIP.]
...but, there are a lot of things that I don't know. Will you teach me more?
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We'll play pretend aaaaaall the time, and I'll tell you everything you want to know, as long as I can.
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[There's a pause, and Justice's voice lowers a little, hesitant.]
When we play...is it okay if it isn't for pretend?
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What do you mean.... You don't like imagination games?
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[Justice whines slightly, as if he's nervous to say what he's actually thinking, but then decides to just come out with it.]
You...you know the wing that I made, right? The houses...with the park?
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Uh-huh? What about it?
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[He sounds ashamed, even if it's not really anything all that shameful.]
All that I have right now is just for pretend.
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there's a part where he pauses in his rocking - apparently surprised. and then he'll just. hold justice closer to him, giving him a very warm, very tight hug.]
....
I liked it.
The place that you made up.
[ . . . . ]
Because I... I don't have anything like that either. The normal house, with a family. That sort of really quiet, peaceful, warm place.... So being able to pretend this week, with the little group that I made play house with me....
[senri whispers the last words, full of gratitude even as fragile as they are:]
Thank you - for giving me that.
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I wish I'd been able to be there with you.
[But he'd been too nervous to ask.]
But...I'm really glad that...that you got to have that. Maybe now you won't have to pretend anymore, because you know what it's like. So you can make a real one for yourself...right?
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I don't know. I'm really good at pretend. I think you've seen that, because I.... don't know how to make anything real. So I go based on what I've seen in stories, and lines that I've delivered before. It makes it hard... to know how to say the right thing, to be genuine with people.
[he continues to hold Justice close, and it's only after all his stage acting that he's able to keep his voice level again, despite the emotion clear in it]
.... but we can try. You and me. We'll try to do a little bit more than pretend, if that's what you want.