If I'm being honest...I don't really know that much about my world. I wasn't there for very long, and I didn't see very much of it, or have very many memories. I only remember the place where I was--it was a big facility.
[and senri will offer a soft smile - he normally doesn't use this many pet names, but something about this child makes him want to. Justice sounds like such a cold ideal at times, and he doesn't think the boy in front of him is anything like that.]
.... is that why the lab is your room? You know equipment and tech really well?
Yeah. It's the only place that I know. I woke up one day inside of that place, with no memories other than a few things, like my name. Then, by the end of the day...I was here, a god.
[senri hums softly at that, and gives justice's hands a squeeze.]
.... when you can, please tell me your name. I want to get to know you better, as much as I can. Every little memory you have, I hope you can share it with me.
[ . . . ]
I talked to Merriment... and he said he doesn't really know if he's the right person to be the leader here. I thought that was a pretty brave thing to admit.
It's a really, really big job. And a super important one, too. That's why...I want to do it. I've never wanted anything else, or cared about anything else as much as this. I feel like...like I just have to.
.... but I'm just wondering - do you think it'd be easier to have a lot of the gods to support you? I know that Merriment takes really good care of you, and I'm suuuuper grateful to him.
I just... talked with Piety - and I was wondering if there was a way to have... balance? You know, like everyone has different things that they're good at, so it's extra important to all work together?
O-Oh, yes, of course! I'd want their support...I'd want them to help me, because there's still so much I'm learning about...about everything!
[He hesitates, nervous.]
It's just...I don't think they like me. Except for Merriment and Piety. Or, at least, I...don't know how to talk to a lot of them, and some of them just scare me so badly. I don't think they'd ever listen to me, or want to help me.
Hey cutie, do you think there's a way that I could talk to more than one god at once? I think I'd like to let you talk to Beauty or Sincerity with me - and I'd be right there, so you wouldn't have to be scared.
.... I like you all a lot. Every god that I've met has been different, but fun to get along with in another way.
So if it's possible... I'd like you all to be able to rule together. Or find a way to see eye to eye on things.
I thought that they'd be nicer, or like me better...but I should have just stood up for myself. I don't want to make those kinds of mistakes anymore. I just...just want people to like me for me.
... it's really tempting, right? To give people what they want. To tell them what they want to hear. Because maybe they'll like you better, or they'll pay attention to you. It's nice to make people happy that way too, but...
[he huffs out a soft laugh]
Sometimes it's also how you feel the loneliest ever - to have a lot of people who like you for something you're not.
I found that out the hard way. So don't be like me, okay?
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
Really? [Justice can’t help but laugh.] Actually...I think it’s because we all want the same thing.
no subject
[he's trying to remember what both of them have told him]
Is that the world that you want?
no subject
no subject
.... mm.
Do you know where your family is, Justice? I don't know - I'm still looking for mine. So I was wondering if you're the same.
Or if you're like Sasuke-kun.
[and you lost yours]
no subject
[It's just, uh, that simple.]
no subject
Mm? It's just you? [ . . . ] What was your world like - before you became a god?
no subject
[He lowers his head a little.]
I'm sorry that I don't know much more than that.
no subject
[and senri will offer a soft smile - he normally doesn't use this many pet names, but something about this child makes him want to. Justice sounds like such a cold ideal at times, and he doesn't think the boy in front of him is anything like that.]
.... is that why the lab is your room? You know equipment and tech really well?
no subject
Yeah. It's the only place that I know. I woke up one day inside of that place, with no memories other than a few things, like my name. Then, by the end of the day...I was here, a god.
no subject
.... when you can, please tell me your name. I want to get to know you better, as much as I can. Every little memory you have, I hope you can share it with me.
[ . . . ]
I talked to Merriment... and he said he doesn't really know if he's the right person to be the leader here. I thought that was a pretty brave thing to admit.
What do you think? Isn't it a big job?
no subject
[His hand tightens around Senri's.]
I'll tell you my name...as...as soon as I can.
no subject
I'd like that. I'd like that a whooole lot.
.... but I'm just wondering - do you think it'd be easier to have a lot of the gods to support you? I know that Merriment takes really good care of you, and I'm suuuuper grateful to him.
I just... talked with Piety - and I was wondering if there was a way to have... balance? You know, like everyone has different things that they're good at, so it's extra important to all work together?
no subject
[He hesitates, nervous.]
It's just...I don't think they like me. Except for Merriment and Piety. Or, at least, I...don't know how to talk to a lot of them, and some of them just scare me so badly. I don't think they'd ever listen to me, or want to help me.
no subject
Hey cutie, do you think there's a way that I could talk to more than one god at once? I think I'd like to let you talk to Beauty or Sincerity with me - and I'd be right there, so you wouldn't have to be scared.
.... I like you all a lot. Every god that I've met has been different, but fun to get along with in another way.
So if it's possible... I'd like you all to be able to rule together. Or find a way to see eye to eye on things.
no subject
I think you could. It would just depend on who you asked to be together, and when.
[Aka if it would involve the mods playing with themselves rip]
no subject
.... okay. [senri leans down to press kisses to the back of justice's hands.] I won't let anything happen to you, so there's no reason to be scared.
I'm going to try to talk to them too.... but if you want me to help you learn how to talk to people, you can just ask.
I think that's the one thing I'm really good at.
no subject
[He hesitates.]
I just don't to make the same mistakes as I did before, that's all.
no subject
no subject
no subject
Uh-huh.
But I'm not mad at you.
no subject
[He really felt like it was all his fault.]
I thought that they'd be nicer, or like me better...but I should have just stood up for myself. I don't want to make those kinds of mistakes anymore. I just...just want people to like me for me.
no subject
... it's really tempting, right? To give people what they want. To tell them what they want to hear. Because maybe they'll like you better, or they'll pay attention to you. It's nice to make people happy that way too, but...
[he huffs out a soft laugh]
Sometimes it's also how you feel the loneliest ever - to have a lot of people who like you for something you're not.
I found that out the hard way. So don't be like me, okay?
I think the way you're changing is for the best.
no subject
What...about being like you the way that you are now, and not the way that you were before?
no subject
[and he holds his arms out for a hug]
But I said we could figure it out together, right? How to be real, and not just pretend. I meant that.
no subject
[As always, Justice hugs him readily.]
Since we're both learning, there'll be nothing to be afraid of!
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)