GODLY AUDIENCES: SENRI

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[divus]

[Senri gets to keep his hands, and Tamaki doesn't respond immediately.]

It's nothing. [There's a smile, and he squeezes Senri's hands a little before he tries to pull them back.] Does it hurt less?

[usogi]

[senri will let him pull back and he blinks a little at the question

tamaki doesn't really want to touch him anymore and is emotionally withdrawing from him too

the answer should be 'yes'

but as he tries to understand what's happening, what he says is:]

... I don't think so.

[divus]

[...]

...what hurts? [He'll just park his ass back down next to Senri and openly stare at him.]

[usogi]

[senri looks away - though he makesno effort to hide the frown on his face]

You're not telling me something...

[divus]

It's not that, Senri. I promise.

[usogi]

Then why does it feel like that....?

[he turns his gaze to Beauty, confused and a little injured]

If I said something wrong, you should tell me. Please.

[divus]

..it's not that. It's...with everything, I want to do so much more for you but I can't. So I'll do what I'm allowed. [Which is taking care of him, apparently. So...] But if it makes you feel guilty, then...

[Mostly "this is all I can do" is "this is all I can do to show my affections because you have a boyfriend" so Senri telling him no was rude.]

[usogi]

[ . . . . . ugh.

they really do keep tripping over this line they've drawn. senri winces a little bit again - this time from a pain much sharper than that of a physical injury - and he'll reach out to cup tamaki's cheek to get him to face him directly]

.... it only makes me feel guilty because I don't know what to do for you in return.

I haven't figured out how to make you happy...

[divus]

[He'll let that happen even as he sort of just stares at Senri again.]

What makes you think you haven't made me happy in the first place?

[usogi]

... I don't know how to make you happy without making you sad at the same time.

[because -

they still can't be together.

and it hurts senri too, but at least he has a way to bandaid it with someone that he can have.]

[divus]

The sadness isn't your fault, you realize. And I'm happy when I get to see you and spend time with you.

[usogi]

[ . . . it's still a little hard to reconcile.

but feelings are complicated, and senri can't even bring himself to disagree. there's no way to solve this, because there's nothing they can do about it. there's nothing they should do about it, because there's nothing possible that won't hurt someone else who doesn't ever deserve to be hurt.

senri will shift so that he can hug tamaki - around the middle, because his arms can't lift high enough to go back around his shoulders again]

.... okay.

Then - I'll be happy with that too, and try to not feel guilty.

[ . . . ]

I really like when you take care of me... maybe a little too much.

[divus]

[Oh. He looks down at Senri for a moment before the action is carefully reciprocated as to not aggravate the injuries.]

Is it possible to like something like this too much? I really don't know. But I think the world could do with a little less loneliness and more people taking care of each other.

[Every day Tamaki misses his hosts a lot. If he can't do what he used to be good at, he can try to be the princely type here.]

[usogi]

[senri thinks it's possible. it's very possible when his heart aches and he knows very much and very clearly he'd like tamaki to take care of him even more - and he believes in another reality where maybe he can.

but that's not this one.]

As long as you promise to leave some room for me to try to return the favor.

[divus]

Of course I will. We still have time together, don't we? We'll have to make every day count.

[Even if it hurts some days. It's better than doing nothing at all.]

[usogi]

.... mm-hmm.

[and he'll pull back then, expression settled into a smile as he tries to lift the mood again]

Injury aside - I feel pretty lucky that I got both you and Cheri to dress me up today.

[even though thanks to the height difference tamaki and senri are definitely not the same size in clothes? he's definitely rocking the stolen from his not!boyfriend's closet look]

[divus]

While he did a better job making you cute, I think I like this look better. [A hand comes up to fruitlessly tug at the collar of the stolen shirt. He's also teasing again for the same reason. Lift the mood, ignore the sad.]

[usogi]

Are you sure? I liked when a skirt managed to make you speechless.

Maybe the prince is a little bit of a pervert too.

[really like how to avoid their star-crossed lovers situation they swerve hard into teasing because that's not confusing]

[divus]

I am not a pervert!! [A DRAMATIC POINT.] Take that back!

[How rude????] And you like that the skirt got a reaction anyway!

[usogi]

I just like it when you tell me I'm cute, I've never made that a secret. That has nothing to do with being lewd, Your Highness.

[he'll finally start buttoning up Tamaki's shirt that he's borrowing?? he looks smug about it. why.]

You, however....

[divus]

I am not lewd! [AHHHH. But oh, okay, that's fine. Senri can button up the shirt and Tamaki's aware that he's probably never seeing it ever again. Oh well, it's fine.]

I can just appreciate the visual appeal.

[usogi]

[senri grins and raises a brow slowly and silently

as if to question

what part of that isn't lewd]

[divus]

[He pushes at Senri's face.] Stop that.

[usogi]

[he's laughing easily - and he has to refrain from turning his face to kiss tamaki's palm. it's a very close thing. he finishes buttoning up the shirt and offers up a grin]

It's okay, Tama-chin. Your secret will be safe with me.

[divus]

[THIS RUDE SHIT!!]

There is no secret because I'm not a pervert! Sen-chan's so mean to me...