I've barely stopped planning since the minute this game started. My plans aren't working. I'm totally out of ideas. Apologizing about mistakes I've made? Nothing. Making up with Sincerity? Nothing. Networking? Nothing, nothing, nothing.
[She takes a minute to have more ice cream.]
Don't get me wrong, I, like, am glad I did those things either way. It felt...nice. To be nice, I mean. But that hasn't changed that I keep sliding farther and farther backward.
[ . . . and senri takes a second to think about that as he also takes a bite of ice cream.]
.... you've done well, Dizzy. I know you're trying your hardest. I hope you keep trying, because I think... well, you've at least made me and Cheri happy by getting around to being nicer.
Even if it doesn't look bright right now, I think it'll pay off in the long run - like, the long, long run where you all have to rule a world together.
Don't beat yourself up; I'm tougher than a lot of people. But maybe it's because I've already had a near-death experience. It's almost like, whatever, you know?
.... I don't want you to have to feel that... We've taken care of the people who've wanted to kill gods so far, but I'm worried that someone else might get some bad ideas this week.
I'm great with loopholes, but some things are just, like, the way that they are.
[She watches him, her eyes darting just slightly, like there's something she's trying to think of, some slip in the rulebook that she hasn't thought of yet.]
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[She shoves the ice cream carton away and pinches the bridge of her nose, eyes closing.]
You're wasting your time. Just have fun partying with Sincerity and Beauty, instead.
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[he frowns]
Don't try to push me away when I'm trying to be here for you. Guilt tripping isn't nice.
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Oh, come on. I'm not pushing you away and I'm not guilt tripping you. I'm being realistic.
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[though he'll shake his head and get up to get a spoon so that he can share ice cream with her]
We can try to brainstorm ways to make it better? Would that help?
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[She puts her hand against her cheek as she watches him get his spoon.]
Brainstorm what? Ways to not follow in Ruin's footsteps?
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[THEY'RE TOTALLY JUST LIKE THIS,, it's fine to speak rude bitch]
Sure. You've got time. You don't want to vent? Let's plan instead. Your pick on what we do.
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[She takes a minute to have more ice cream.]
Don't get me wrong, I, like, am glad I did those things either way. It felt...nice. To be nice, I mean. But that hasn't changed that I keep sliding farther and farther backward.
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.... you've done well, Dizzy. I know you're trying your hardest. I hope you keep trying, because I think... well, you've at least made me and Cheri happy by getting around to being nicer.
Even if it doesn't look bright right now, I think it'll pay off in the long run - like, the long, long run where you all have to rule a world together.
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... Dizzy's way tougher than me... That's a pretty scary thing to think about, you know?
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[...]
I am scared, though. Seriously.
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senri frowns and holds a hand out to her]
.... I don't want you to have to feel that... We've taken care of the people who've wanted to kill gods so far, but I'm worried that someone else might get some bad ideas this week.
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[But, after maybe a slight hesitation, she puts her hand in his, her features tensing, but then softening.]
It's just when you think you're in the clear that some other problem surfaces.
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... I wish I could know more. Any chance you could bend the rules and tell me?
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[She watches him, her eyes darting just slightly, like there's something she's trying to think of, some slip in the rulebook that she hasn't thought of yet.]
You know, you haven't asked me what my name is.
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[just saying
and he tilts his head]
Oh, sorry - sometimes I forget. [he has no idea what the fuck ambition's name is because bambi is a cute nickname] Want to share it with me?
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[So it's just, like, whatever.]
And I'm sure I will. Maybe after I've had more ice cream.
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[he loves it! and he'll hum thoughtfully]
Do you want a nickname when it's just the two of us too? Riri, maybe? Or do you have one you go by back home?