Ahh, it's been so hard Lovey...! [soft crylaugh] I've... had to change a lot of things about how I operate in this game, just to make sure that I don't hurt anyone. I don't... I've never wanted to hurt someone with my lies, but I think I had to realize really fast that they can sting if they're uncovered.
[whereas in shinonome everyone just thinks it's funny when senri's lies get uncovered so he keeps lying, damn,,]
.... but I'm glad. That you were able to find someone like that. My guess was right that the goddess of Love would be able to get where I'm coming from! You know Shishimaru already - can I ask what your person is like?
I think you're still doing your best, and that's kind of what makes it worth it. The willingness to change is the most important part. Sometimes...we have to lie to protect ourselves and the people we love. But it's about knowing which lies to tell and which lies to avoid.
[So. It's hit and miss, but she understands. There's a small laugh though because...] ...he's kind of funny. Charming in his own goofy way, but he's usually pretty levelheaded. He can be rash when things upset him, but he's always been the driving force for our team to keep us going. He's really smart, really good with people, too.
[...] He's been doing some kind of stupid things in this game, but you know...stakes are high. I forgive him.
[senri nods, because he agrees with her. beat for beat. he still hasn't been convinced that lies in their entirety are a bad thing, depending on where they're used, if it's strategic, if anyone gets hurt -
It's...complicated? I mean yeah, I'm happy to see him, but I'm still pretty worried about him being here. He...remembers things a little differently than I do.
It's pretty boring stuff. [It's a little weird though?] It's just...he remembers something happening to us at home. It's the last thing he remembers, but I remember something more after that. I don't really understand how it happened, but I haven't told him either.
I think...if he knows? He might not fight as hard in this game. Is that selfish? He's worried about our friends back home, but if he knew they were alright, would he keep playing the way he's been playing? I don't know.
I'm not even sure what he really thinks about me being here. What he thinks happened, I mean.
I hope so. [She doesn't sound quite so sure, but she shakes her head.] It's okay. It'll work out the way it's supposed to. Sort of like how you and Takaomi-kun worked out.
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[whereas in shinonome everyone just thinks it's funny when senri's lies get uncovered so he keeps lying, damn,,]
.... but I'm glad. That you were able to find someone like that. My guess was right that the goddess of Love would be able to get where I'm coming from! You know Shishimaru already - can I ask what your person is like?
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[So. It's hit and miss, but she understands. There's a small laugh though because...] ...he's kind of funny. Charming in his own goofy way, but he's usually pretty levelheaded. He can be rash when things upset him, but he's always been the driving force for our team to keep us going. He's really smart, really good with people, too.
[...] He's been doing some kind of stupid things in this game, but you know...stakes are high. I forgive him.
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and then he pauses when she goes on.]
In this....
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Yu-kun....?
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[he didn't trick anyone!!]
Are you happy to see him?
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[the same world? he frowns, obvious that he doesn't quite get it]
... If you want to talk about it, I'm all ears, but I don't want to make you feel like you have to, either.
I guess I just would feel weird if Taka and I remembered different things.
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[ . . . ]
You don't want to...? Do you think it'll worry him?
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I'm not even sure what he really thinks about me being here. What he thinks happened, I mean.
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[ . . . ]
But I'm sure that even then - he'll know that you're thinking of him, and how you only want the best for him.
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Hopefully less bumpy than us.
You deserve something really sweet, and really happy.
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Is there anything else I can help you with today?
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I don't think so - thanks for the talk. I hope you and Konkon like the sweets.
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