Saturday is a hard day for Advancement Opportunity - and it gives me limited time to work on Sunday, but that's why I have to do it. I'm... Well, I'm learning to split my work now, at least.
Connor-san seems nice enough, I think. Objective enough, too. ...but if you work with Nonon-san, just be kind to her, okay? She doesn't trust people very easily. It means a lot when she does trust, but I'm sure you have enough experience by now.
[...] I want to make sure nothing ever happens to her. Any of you, of course, but she's under my care right now.
... yeah, I think I'm getting the idea of that too. So I'll be careful - I don't want her to think I'm misleading her. She's someone that Ray-kun trusted, so I think I can let down my guard a little...
I want to deceive only the people I'm meant to deceive, moving forward. So I can still protect the people I'm supposed to.
...she's one of the people I trust a lot, too, if it helps. She doesn't hold back on very much.
I think that's a good plan though. And I don't think there's anything wrong with that kind of mentality if it means helping you survive and build a network of people around you.
Mm-hmm. I think it does. You and the rest of the gods - I know that you can't see our conversations with all of you, but a lot of you have good heads on your shoulders.
I need... more help like that now than ever, I think.
... yeah. [and senri smiles] It's... It makes me really happy, honestly.
But... I guess now I'm trying to figure out the limitations of what the gods can do - how much we can get out of this game, and how to make as many people happy as possible.
It's a tough job. I don't even know if we know all of our limitations. We're still sort of learning just like you guys, and yes, I get it, that's not reassuring but it was either try to fix it now or just let the world be damaged while we sorted things amongst ourselves.
I have hope still that this was the better choice.
No, I think... it makes sense. I don't... I mean, I'm still unhappy about how the game is being played. The murder, and hurting people... It's way too much for me.
But I get why you chose to do it this way - by inviting other people to help.
I just... don't like the idea of anyone going home empty-handed, after all this.
I know. I'm not happy about it either, even though it's technically just as much my fault as the other's...[Sigh.]
It's been helpful having objective parties talk to us, I think. It's still not fair and it's why I really hope we can reward you guys any way we can, but...it's still a competition. There has to be tiers of prizes, I think, to keep the game going. But if we can have enough power to at least do something small that'd be best.
... there's a lot of wishes that I want granted - but I also know... just as many people who are slowly willing to let go of their wishes. I'm hoping that might help, to get some of the bigger ones more room to get granted maybe.
It's a very brave and selfless thing to want, Senri. I'll give you that. But be careful that you don't lose sight of your goals, too. It's going to take everyone giving it their best shot to make wishes come true.
Sasuke doesn't think he needs his wish anymore and... to be honest, considering what I heard his original wish was, I'm kind of glad he changed his mind. I think... he's really improved for the better here, after a lot of hard work. I think he'll do well, once he's back home.
Madopyon... ah, hers is more complicated. Reducing the entropy of the universe... She says that she thinks she could do it without a wish and... I don't know. I want to believe that she can. But it's such a good wish that I want her to take it, still.
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I... wanted to find my family, or even just my mother. For fifteen years, that's all I ever wanted. Like maybe if she saw my face in a flyer or in a commercial, she'd just - she'd just know it was me, and she'd come find me. I thought that if I just had one person to love me unconditionally, no matter what mistakes I've made, I wouldn't need anything else.
... but Taka and I - we're in an academy where if I can just wait three years, I can still get a chance. It won't be as easy as a wish, but... it doesn't have to be.
And at the end of the day.... I have him. He said he won't leave me, so... I'm going to try to deserve that, and believe that.
...I sort of got that impression about Sasuke, too. I've never spoken to Madoka, but she's a brave girl. And if you guys really believe you can do it without...I think that just makes you that much stronger.
[But she pauses for a moment and seems to stare at Senri.] Oh. [The "oh" is like unrelated to pretty much all of that, but it's clear she's just made a connection about something and she shakes her head.] No, it makes sense, and...I think that's sweet. About you and Takaomi-kun. Even if it was from an unexpected place, that's what love is. Sometimes wishes aren't easy. Even now you guys are fighting for yours, aren't you?
So...if the fight changes, that doesn't mean the wish is any less. And it doesn't mean you've done any less to earn it.
[sdflkjsdf you'll have to give him a second, he looks really embarrassed to have the word 'love' applied to him and taka. he bows his head even as a blush is absolutely crawling up his neck]
.... yeah, it's... yeah. He and I will keep working hard after this. I hope he still gets his wish, though. He knows that I changed mine but... Taka's always had his heart in a better place than I have.
As long as I have him... I can wait a little longer to find the rest of my family. He said he'll be mine... so I think I'll be okay.
Of course. [like no hesitation] I don't think he realizes - but he's sort of... helping make my wish come true all by himself. He always says that I do a lot for him but... I'll do everything I can to make him happy. I know he keeps a lot to himself, but... we're gonna keep trying.
[a little nod.]
... I think he's just always been afraid of building these connections with people. We're so different that I don't know if I understand why but... I'm happy that he's trying. I'm going to make sure he doesn't regret it.
I think I can understand why, but that's why people like us need people like you guys to push us into being better. You balance him, Senri. That's your job and that's what partners are supposed to do. I don't really know what he was like before this, but he's always been really nice to me...sometimes he just visits to see me when he doesn't have to. And I asked him to try and get to know people and maybe I bribed him a little, but he's trying.
...both of you are trying really hard, and that's the most important thing. Supporting each other is the best thing you can do in a relationship, I think.
If you can obtain a wish on your own, guess you really don't need yours here. I never thought about it that way.
Thanks for bribing him. I kept getting him to try but.... even back home, other people had to tell him that they were friends first. He's not really about initiating that sort of thing on his own, but I get really worried about him being alone. It sounds like you, Merriment, the other gods... You wouldn't let him be alone. I'm really, really grateful.
[he can't even begin to say how much taka means to him, and knowing that taka was taken care of, when senri couldn't be with him? it means the world]
.... but - yeah. I think... Ishirin-san said it before. That his wish was something he could still work toward without needing it granted.
A lot of us know what it's like to be alone, I think, and don't want to see that for you guys. Merriment especially. [She shakes her head.] I know it's hard to believe, but…we do care about you guys. It was inevitable since we started getting to know you guys.
…it may be worth asking everyone if they feel the same way and figuring out your next step from there. It might inspire them to really think about what they're playing for.
Is it hard to believe...? [senri laughs at that quietly] I don't know Rise-chan, I think that's one of the few things that I believe in more than anything else. That the gods have all come to care about us in their own time... since you all were people once too, right?
But... yeah, you're right. I'll - try to figure out what to do. Even if all I can do is talk to people, I guess I'll just chat everyone's ear off.
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Saturday is a hard day for Advancement Opportunity - and it gives me limited time to work on Sunday, but that's why I have to do it. I'm... Well, I'm learning to split my work now, at least.
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I think maybe that's the only reason the trial managed to get as far as it did today.
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But... I'm going to see if Nonon-san wants to work with me more, too. Connor-san.
People that Ray-kun was in touch with more than I was.... but I'll make up for that now.
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[...] I want to make sure nothing ever happens to her. Any of you, of course, but she's under my care right now.
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... yeah, I think I'm getting the idea of that too. So I'll be careful - I don't want her to think I'm misleading her. She's someone that Ray-kun trusted, so I think I can let down my guard a little...
I want to deceive only the people I'm meant to deceive, moving forward. So I can still protect the people I'm supposed to.
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I think that's a good plan though. And I don't think there's anything wrong with that kind of mentality if it means helping you survive and build a network of people around you.
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I need... more help like that now than ever, I think.
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...you see it, too, don't you, Senri-kun? The changes that're happening to us. We're learning from you guys whether we want to or not.
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But... I guess now I'm trying to figure out the limitations of what the gods can do - how much we can get out of this game, and how to make as many people happy as possible.
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I have hope still that this was the better choice.
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No, I think... it makes sense. I don't... I mean, I'm still unhappy about how the game is being played. The murder, and hurting people... It's way too much for me.
But I get why you chose to do it this way - by inviting other people to help.
I just... don't like the idea of anyone going home empty-handed, after all this.
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It's been helpful having objective parties talk to us, I think. It's still not fair and it's why I really hope we can reward you guys any way we can, but...it's still a competition. There has to be tiers of prizes, I think, to keep the game going. But if we can have enough power to at least do something small that'd be best.
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[senri just
sighs at that]
... there's a lot of wishes that I want granted - but I also know... just as many people who are slowly willing to let go of their wishes. I'm hoping that might help, to get some of the bigger ones more room to get granted maybe.
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Who are you thinking of?
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Madopyon... I wish she wouldn't, but I know she said she's thinking of letting go of her wish. I am. Sasuke is.
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Madopyon... ah, hers is more complicated. Reducing the entropy of the universe... She says that she thinks she could do it without a wish and... I don't know. I want to believe that she can. But it's such a good wish that I want her to take it, still.
[ . . . ]
I... wanted to find my family, or even just my mother. For fifteen years, that's all I ever wanted. Like maybe if she saw my face in a flyer or in a commercial, she'd just - she'd just know it was me, and she'd come find me. I thought that if I just had one person to love me unconditionally, no matter what mistakes I've made, I wouldn't need anything else.
... but Taka and I - we're in an academy where if I can just wait three years, I can still get a chance. It won't be as easy as a wish, but... it doesn't have to be.
And at the end of the day.... I have him. He said he won't leave me, so... I'm going to try to deserve that, and believe that.
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[But she pauses for a moment and seems to stare at Senri.] Oh. [The "oh" is like unrelated to pretty much all of that, but it's clear she's just made a connection about something and she shakes her head.] No, it makes sense, and...I think that's sweet. About you and Takaomi-kun. Even if it was from an unexpected place, that's what love is. Sometimes wishes aren't easy. Even now you guys are fighting for yours, aren't you?
So...if the fight changes, that doesn't mean the wish is any less. And it doesn't mean you've done any less to earn it.
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.... yeah, it's... yeah. He and I will keep working hard after this. I hope he still gets his wish, though. He knows that I changed mine but... Taka's always had his heart in a better place than I have.
As long as I have him... I can wait a little longer to find the rest of my family. He said he'll be mine... so I think I'll be okay.
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And you'll help him get his wish even if he doesn't get it here, too, right? Both of you. Working together. [Right?]
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[a little nod.]
... I think he's just always been afraid of building these connections with people. We're so different that I don't know if I understand why but... I'm happy that he's trying. I'm going to make sure he doesn't regret it.
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...both of you are trying really hard, and that's the most important thing. Supporting each other is the best thing you can do in a relationship, I think.
If you can obtain a wish on your own, guess you really don't need yours here. I never thought about it that way.
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Thanks for bribing him. I kept getting him to try but.... even back home, other people had to tell him that they were friends first. He's not really about initiating that sort of thing on his own, but I get really worried about him being alone. It sounds like you, Merriment, the other gods... You wouldn't let him be alone. I'm really, really grateful.
[he can't even begin to say how much taka means to him, and knowing that taka was taken care of, when senri couldn't be with him? it means the world]
.... but - yeah. I think... Ishirin-san said it before. That his wish was something he could still work toward without needing it granted.
It inspired a lot of people.
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…it may be worth asking everyone if they feel the same way and figuring out your next step from there. It might inspire them to really think about what they're playing for.
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But... yeah, you're right. I'll - try to figure out what to do. Even if all I can do is talk to people, I guess I'll just chat everyone's ear off.
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