.... I mean - sure. But that what a choice that I made, in order to get along with them. So that I could always make them happy... I thought that was always the most important thing.
[admittedly even now, he's running himself ragged for the sake of other people's happiness]
I think that I'd rather have positive relationships with people than be myself - or at least try to get myself to be a type of person that others might like.
I guess so...but it can be pretty lonely to just be the person everybody wants you to be instead of being yourself and letting people like you for you. For the longest time, people didn't want to be friends with me. They wanted to be friends with Risette the idol. And that's who I gave them even though it never solved anything I thought being an idol would fix.
Who says you can't have positive relationships and be yourself?
Mm... it's not that bad - or... I thought that, before I came here. I felt a little lonely, every now and then. No one really knew me, and if they did then they decided they didn't like me - like Shishimaru did.
[ . . . ]
But it's different now - and he came around... so I guess... it's possible. I don't know if I'm brave enough to try it back home yet, because I can't risk failing....
One step at a time. It's scary, especially if people have expectations...Yosuke-senpai saw me as Risette for a really long time, but he was cute about it and eventually got over it. Yu-senpai...always just saw me as me. It was because of him, I think, that everyone else started to accept me, too.
Maybe Taka-kun would be that person for you, too. Someone who knows all sides of you and supports you anyway.
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[admittedly even now, he's running himself ragged for the sake of other people's happiness]
I think that I'd rather have positive relationships with people than be myself - or at least try to get myself to be a type of person that others might like.
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Who says you can't have positive relationships and be yourself?
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[ . . . ]
But it's different now - and he came around... so I guess... it's possible. I don't know if I'm brave enough to try it back home yet, because I can't risk failing....
I can try though. Slowly but surely, I can try.
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Maybe Taka-kun would be that person for you, too. Someone who knows all sides of you and supports you anyway.
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[that much is something that he can agree to, easily
he might have it pretty fucking bad]
So... well, I'll... try.
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Sooo...Thursday. Are you feeling a little more prepared now?
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Hope it'll be a fun show.
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