[Following that admission, Piety is silent for long moment, staring down at his hands.]
Actually, it was the cause of a lot of suffering in my life and the lives of others I cared about. It was painful and...meaningless. But I wouldn't be alive without it, either. And I accepted who and what I was. What else could I do?
[Ah, the horror of being alive. Sieg knows this well.]
It's hard to accept.
I was made to be expended... I don't know if that's worse than having no meaning, but I ran from my purpose. I was lucky to find people who wanted to help me.
Yes, the two of us have spoken on a few occasions.
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I know exactly what you mean. If it weren't for the friends I made...I don't know if I'd have ever found the courage to follow my own heart instead of letting those who created me use me as a puppet for their own purposes. Finding those who inspire you to live...it truly is a blessing, isn't it?
I hope he finds the answers he's looking for. The reason I was created was very different than his.
[He nods.]
I was so lost when I first gained sentience. All I knew was that I didn't want to die. I didn't have a plan, my body was so weak I couldn't walk. I had to crawl during my attempted escape. I wasn't a puppet, but I was a battery.
Without Rider or Ruler I never would've thought of having desires of my own.
[He hesitates, but then reaches out to put his hand on Sieg's.]
It's...confusing, being brought into the world in such a way. Terrifying, even. I hope the same thing for him...for anyone like us, in any way. I know this contest has taken many tragic turns, but nonetheless I think it's a wonderful opportunity to learn from all kinds of people. I hope you're each able to find something that will help you better understand yourselves.
[He allows it, looking at Piety's hand on top of his own. It would've been so strange that anybody would bother touching him like that when he was first made... He slowly relaxes.]
Free will... it's a scarier thing than most people realize. To know what your purpose is but be terrified of it and run... humans don't know that. They can find their own purpose, they aren't made for anything specific. They just are. It's different.
I want to learn about the gods and the people here.
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[Following that admission, Piety is silent for long moment, staring down at his hands.]
Actually, it was the cause of a lot of suffering in my life and the lives of others I cared about. It was painful and...meaningless. But I wouldn't be alive without it, either. And I accepted who and what I was. What else could I do?
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[Ah, the horror of being alive. Sieg knows this well.]
It's hard to accept.
I was made to be expended... I don't know if that's worse than having no meaning, but I ran from my purpose. I was lucky to find people who wanted to help me.
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Yes, the two of us have spoken on a few occasions.
[...]
I know exactly what you mean. If it weren't for the friends I made...I don't know if I'd have ever found the courage to follow my own heart instead of letting those who created me use me as a puppet for their own purposes. Finding those who inspire you to live...it truly is a blessing, isn't it?
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[He nods.]
I was so lost when I first gained sentience. All I knew was that I didn't want to die. I didn't have a plan, my body was so weak I couldn't walk. I had to crawl during my attempted escape. I wasn't a puppet, but I was a battery.
Without Rider or Ruler I never would've thought of having desires of my own.
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[He hesitates, but then reaches out to put his hand on Sieg's.]
It's...confusing, being brought into the world in such a way. Terrifying, even. I hope the same thing for him...for anyone like us, in any way. I know this contest has taken many tragic turns, but nonetheless I think it's a wonderful opportunity to learn from all kinds of people. I hope you're each able to find something that will help you better understand yourselves.
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Free will... it's a scarier thing than most people realize. To know what your purpose is but be terrified of it and run... humans don't know that. They can find their own purpose, they aren't made for anything specific. They just are. It's different.
I want to learn about the gods and the people here.