It's true that Love and Sincerity are the gods that align to my beliefs the closest.
But... I caused a lot of disorder when I was first made. We... homunculi like me, aren't supposed to have free will. The only options available to us are the ones that we're given. You and I both believe in change to the status quo.
This part is selfish of me. I asked Cinque to take my place in Love but I don't want you to be in danger either.
Cinque's the only person in this game who's never abandoned me.
[So she sounds a bit sharp about the idea of losing her, but sighs in frustration and moves past it.]
But I guess, for someone like me, having more than one follower at a time is just too much to ask for. Of course I'd accept you. I'm not the kind of person who just, like, rejects people.
Pity followers. Unless someone else wants me, I don't expect my second follower to stay. They never even came to speak to me, themselves.
[She runs a finger carefully down the side of her spiked plant.]
You don't need to thank me. I'm the one who should be thanking you, even if you don't intend to stay. At least you've listened to me, and believe in the things that I say.
I get it, you know. Why everyone's always telling me they're too worried about someone else to worry about me. I just don't get why I don't have anyone like that. Love, Sincerity, Beauty, Justice, Piety...they've all had someone who's been loyal to them since the beginning. I just haven't...ever felt safe, or wanted.
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I tried to talk like this to a few people, but they just thought I was lying, I think.
It's hard for me to believe in much. But I'll believe in her, at least for you.
[She laughs.]
We're all young, you know. Nobody's going to hold that against you. I think you're a hell of a lot smarter than most of the people here, because unlike them, you have an open mind.
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[Disorder sighs.]
Honestly, it's a fluke I'm still alive. How's the leg?
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[There's a pause.]
It could be better.
Would you accept me for this upcoming week?
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[But she pauses, too, looking up at him.]
Why would you accept me? I know you have to defect, but, like, aren't there gods you like better? I'm tired of people swapping to me out of pity.
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But... I caused a lot of disorder when I was first made. We... homunculi like me, aren't supposed to have free will. The only options available to us are the ones that we're given. You and I both believe in change to the status quo.
This part is selfish of me. I asked Cinque to take my place in Love but I don't want you to be in danger either.
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[So she sounds a bit sharp about the idea of losing her, but sighs in frustration and moves past it.]
But I guess, for someone like me, having more than one follower at a time is just too much to ask for. Of course I'd accept you. I'm not the kind of person who just, like, rejects people.
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I think she'll come back to you. She really does like you a lot.
... I thought you'd have two this next week.
[Sieg bows his head.]
Thank you for taking me in, Disorder.
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[She runs a finger carefully down the side of her spiked plant.]
You don't need to thank me. I'm the one who should be thanking you, even if you don't intend to stay. At least you've listened to me, and believe in the things that I say.
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No um... I heard some gods rejected people who wanted to join them. I'm going to thank you.
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[She's quiet for a moment.]
I get it, you know. Why everyone's always telling me they're too worried about someone else to worry about me. I just don't get why I don't have anyone like that. Love, Sincerity, Beauty, Justice, Piety...they've all had someone who's been loyal to them since the beginning. I just haven't...ever felt safe, or wanted.
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I tried to talk like this to a few people, but they just thought I was lying, I think.
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[He shakes his head.]
I don't think you're lying to me. I think... it's hard to talk about things like this, and people don't lie about how they feel.
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But maybe that's because I'm young.
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[She laughs.]
We're all young, you know. Nobody's going to hold that against you. I think you're a hell of a lot smarter than most of the people here, because unlike them, you have an open mind.
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[He thinks about it thoughtfully- yes, some of the gods are much younger than he thought they'd be.]
You think so? I have so few experiences... Even with everything that's happened, I'm grateful to meet more people.
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I'll have more memories I can rely on in the future. That's for sure.