GODLY AUDIENCES - TAKAOMI SHISHIMARU

[divus]

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[divus]

Good. I trust you to do the right thing. [...] Speaking of, how's your project going?

[Talking to people and learning new things.]

[bakaomi]

I think I hit the five.

[ there's a pause. ]

Had to explain anime to Luke. That was weird.

[divus]

Five's what I gave you. Five people, five facts.

...why did you have to explain anime though?

[bakaomi]

I just mentioned it offhandedly, and he didn't know what it was.

We ended up watching some together.

[divus]

That's kind of cute. I get the feeling he's from a world where he was also kind of sheltered anyway...he seems to like you.

[bakaomi]

Apparently he wants to be my friend or something...

[ it's weird. ]

[divus]

Is that really such a bad thing? Friends are great.

[bakaomi]

I don't get why he wants to though?

[ because luke has never said this to his face, taka only knows because senri told him. ]

[divus]

[Shrug.] Sometimes people don't really need a reason outside of "I want to spend time with you."

...we're kind of friends, aren't we?

[bakaomi]

We're...

[ why are people so blunt about friendship. god. ]

Yeah.

[divus]

See? Not that hard. [She's definitely just teasing him though.]

You remind me a lot of a friend Senpai and I used to know. The Detective Prince. I'm pretty sure she had a hard time figuring out how friendship worked, too.

[bakaomi]

I have friends back home... it's just...

[ he sighs, before shoving his last piece of cheesecake into his mouth. ]

It's a pain.

[divus]

Your friends specifically? Or having friends at all?

[bakaomi]

In general...?

Having people to hang out with isn't that bad. It's nice to talk about your interests with someone. It's just the...

[ emotional intimacy part that he struggles with. even if he's been improving on that front while here. ]

[divus]

Caring about people, because you don't always know the right thing to say. Or what to do. And when you're friends, you're expected to.

That kind of thing?

[bakaomi]

... mm.

It's too complicated.

[divus]

If people are really your friends, they won't expect more of you than what you're capable of giving. They'll be patient.

[bakaomi]

Is that really enough?

[ people seem more greedy than that. ]

[divus]

Maybe not for some people, but that's why you talk to them about it.

[bakaomi]

That's so much of a hassle...

[ although there's not that much bite to his words ]

[divus]

I think you're just being silly, personally. Is it worth it or not?

[bakaomi]

... I'm trying to figure that out still.

[divus]

[An eyeroll.] Well...what would make you think maybe it's not?

[bakaomi]

...

You don't really seem like the type of person who has trouble connecting with people.

[divus]

[She just kind of looks away for a moment.]

...for a really long time, I didn't have friends. Mostly because I didn't know how to talk to people. I always looked at my feet and didn't know what to say, so when I was in class I was bullied a lot.

[A shrug.] And then I became an idol to change all of that. It worked for a little while, but most people didn't want to talk to me. They wanted to be friends with Risette.