He was really insistent about it because the Man in the Moon told him it was true. I'd spent the last 300 years trying to get the guy to talk to me, so I didn't really have a choice.
[...but.] I think they all did, except maybe Bunny but that's not too surprising. It was kind of overwhelming to have that many people trust me suddenly when I was busy thinking of all of the ways I could screw up.
[Is there a reason he's telling Taka all of this now? Maybe.]
A little, but at the same time I found out I had some pretty sweet powers I didn't know I could tap into.
...North never really let me dwell on stuff either. [Ah. The lesson part.] I'm still not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing considering how everything turned out before the ascension.
Probably not gonna be an answer you'll like, but I think I wish he would have. I know why I did what I did, and maybe if things had been different I wouldn't have screwed everything up for them. But if I didn't screw everything up, I might be playing this game differently, too.
So. It's hard to say. I wish I had more time to talk to him, but we had other things happening at the same time. Moving from one thing to the next. [A wave a hand.] Sort of like this place.
There's that, too. And eventually it builds up that when things finally stop...not that great. [He shrugs.
...] I don't know. We're committed to this now and as far as I know, we can maybe check in but I'm not sure about ever being able to talk to them again or anything like that.
[There's silence because Jack's not great at this, so he's taking time to kind of fumble around for a real answer.]
...an apology first, for putting everybody in danger because I went after something I thought was more important. For thinking I could do things by myself and still protect everything. And then...I'd have to probably admit that being a Guardian isn't as easy as I thought and see if they'd even want to bring me back.
And then we'd have to stop Pitch. But now that I'm not there, that's up to them.
...I know you're probably right, but I'm not there anymore. And I'm not going back. I'm here, so I have to keep going and stop chasing my past. That's what the problem was last time.
[...he shakes his head.] Don't worry about it. It's a nice thought to have though. My job right now is to take care of you guys and secure what's best for this world.
...thanks. [He's busy looking at his hands instead.]
...you've grown a lot since we started, too, you know. I've told you this before, but I'm proud of you. Even with the screw-ups. [That they both caused.]
Yeah. A real tragedy. [But...Jack also knows that as much as he wants Taka to stay with him, he'd let him go if it meant making sure he got his wish. So. That's just how it is.]
And since I'm stuck with you and it's just you and me today...what do you want to do? It can be anything you want. [Games to ignore everything, talking some more, whatever.]
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[...but.] I think they all did, except maybe Bunny but that's not too surprising. It was kind of overwhelming to have that many people trust me suddenly when I was busy thinking of all of the ways I could screw up.
[Is there a reason he's telling Taka all of this now? Maybe.]
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... I guess that would be stressful....
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...North never really let me dwell on stuff either. [Ah. The lesson part.] I'm still not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing considering how everything turned out before the ascension.
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But what do you think, even if you're not sure?
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So. It's hard to say. I wish I had more time to talk to him, but we had other things happening at the same time. Moving from one thing to the next. [A wave a hand.] Sort of like this place.
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[ it somehow feels like a long time and a very short amount of time at the same time. ]
You guys really can't ever see them again?
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...] I don't know. We're committed to this now and as far as I know, we can maybe check in but I'm not sure about ever being able to talk to them again or anything like that.
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If you could, do you know what you would say to them?
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Tell me about it.
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...an apology first, for putting everybody in danger because I went after something I thought was more important. For thinking I could do things by myself and still protect everything. And then...I'd have to probably admit that being a Guardian isn't as easy as I thought and see if they'd even want to bring me back.
And then we'd have to stop Pitch. But now that I'm not there, that's up to them.
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I don't know them or anything, but... from what you've said, especially North, they seem like the kind of people who would give you another chance.
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[...he shakes his head.] Don't worry about it. It's a nice thought to have though. My job right now is to take care of you guys and secure what's best for this world.
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You're doing a pretty good job of that.
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...you've grown a lot since we started, too, you know. I've told you this before, but I'm proud of you. Even with the screw-ups. [That they both caused.]
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... but it also doesn't feel that bad, the praise but the acknowledgment that he's made mistakes. it feels more real, that way. ]
... thanks.
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Stick with me and we'll get through the rest.
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[ trying to decide what to do for the final tally is gonna be rough ]
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And since I'm stuck with you and it's just you and me today...what do you want to do? It can be anything you want. [Games to ignore everything, talking some more, whatever.]
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[ he's pulling out his ipod. ]
Listen with me?
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he looks pleased ]
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And so they listen to music.]