Yeah. Both of them have done...really amazing things for me. And they're both people who are really misunderstood. So...when they've both hurt each other, how am I supposed to feel? I can't pick one of them...I don't support either of their choices, but I still love them, too.
...I was scared, and lonely. When the others who wanted the game this way approached me, I was too afraid to say no. Of what they'd do or how they'd treat me. And I thought...if I just did what they wanted, they'd like me.
[He shakes his head.]
I knew that I was wrong, but now I understand more than just my weakness. I know...it's important for me to stand up for the way that I feel. That the way I feel, here--
[He puts one hand over his heart.]
--it's not any less valid than the way anyone else feels. Before this all started I...I really hated everything about myself.
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WEEK 6, POST TRIAL
Hi...how are...how are you doing?
[He seems a bit jittery, but he's petting the origami lion like it's a real cat and it seems to be making him feel pretty okay? This is fine.]
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he pauses, and then shrugs. ]
... okay. What about you?
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[He trails off, looking at the lion.]
I'm relieved that Entrapta is alive, but I'm upset about everything else. I'm angry, I guess.
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You're close to her? And Sasuke too, right?
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Yeah. Both of them have done...really amazing things for me. And they're both people who are really misunderstood. So...when they've both hurt each other, how am I supposed to feel? I can't pick one of them...I don't support either of their choices, but I still love them, too.
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[ to have to watch this happen week after week, and not be able to help in a way that they'd like to. ]
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[He's thoughtful.]
I just don't like any of this at all. I don't like...these kind of games.
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[ that or forced, he never got the story from justice himself. ]
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[He shakes his head.]
I knew that I was wrong, but now I understand more than just my weakness. I know...it's important for me to stand up for the way that I feel. That the way I feel, here--
[He puts one hand over his heart.]
--it's not any less valid than the way anyone else feels. Before this all started I...I really hated everything about myself.
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it's a lot to hear, especially from someone so young. ]
But now?
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[He's thoughtfully silent for a moment.]
I know I'm me, no matter what. And that being mean makes me special, so my voice is special, too.
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Your voice?
justice putting on a leather jacket and gelling back his hair--
justice is going feral