GODLY AUDIENCES - TAKAOMI SHISHIMARU

[divus]

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[divus]

[Things Tamaki isn't saying: he forced Kyoya's hand into breaking out of his confinements.]

They are. [And he sounds so, so soft talking about them, fondness dripping from his tone whether he wants it to or not.] They're the reason for everything that I do, truthfully, and they've helped inspire my vision for the world. Even if we're apart now...I'd like to go forward and create something that they would be proud of.

[bakaomi]

[ tamaki is so fuckin gay

... although taka thinks he gets it, whether he wants to or not. ]

... well, you'd probably be fine. You'd know better than anyone about them.

[divus]

Probably. [A thin smile.] But even knowing people so well...one often wonders how much there is to know. [He places his chin in his hand.] There's always a lot to learn about other people, even those closest to us. Perhaps those are the people we never will truly know everything about anyway.

[bakaomi]

That's not always a bad thing, you know.

[ taka is the worst person to have this kind of topic with ]

[divus]

What makes you say that's not a bad thing? Wouldn't you want to know?

[Zero judgment, he's just curious.]

[bakaomi]

I think it's impossible to know every part of another person. Sometimes you don't even understand yourself completely, so how can you expect someone else to?

[divus]

When you put it that way I suppose you have a fair point. But at the same time...how do you know when you don't fully understand yourself? I feel like perhaps that is one of the greater mysteries of life waiting to be solved.

[bakaomi]

I think it's... you won't really know how you'll react to something until you're put into the situation.

[ he gestures around them. ]

Like here. I learned a lot about myself from being here that I would have never found out if I never came.

[divus]

I suppose that's true...even though the potential has always been there, it may have been buried until the right time. I think that's maybe less about knowing yourself and more about exposing the other parts of yourself.

But not a bad comparison to make.

[bakaomi]

Maybe.

I'm not a very philosophical person.

[divus]

You're still young. With time I believe you will get there. [He says, as if he isn't only a few years older.]

[bakaomi]

...

You're not that much older than I am...

[divus]

But I have immortality on my side. That has to count for something.

[bakaomi]

You're like a baby immortal right now. It doesn't count yet.

[divus]

But the two years I have over you does. [...] You're close enough in age that I understand, at least.

[That's cryptic and unhelpful, thanks]

[bakaomi]

You sound like an upperclassman...

[ it's muttered

even though, technically, if they were in the same school then tamaki would be his senpai ]

[divus]

Aren't I though? I was close to starting my third year of high school before the ascension.

[bakaomi]

I don't even call my actual upperclassmen 'senpai' so I definitely wouldn't call you it.

[ he is a punk bitch underclassman ]

[divus]

[An eyeroll.] The twins don't call me senpai either. Haruhi does sometimes. I suppose it's a matter of preference even if it makes you incredibly rude.

[bakaomi]

How does it make me rude? Just because someone tells you to do something doesn't mean you should.

[divus]

[He doesn't immediately argue, but there's a curious hum.]

Why do you say that?

[bakaomi]

Things like honorifics and bowing don't really mean anything. Why do I have to give someone a title of respect when I know nothing about them, just because they're a little older than me?

[divus]

Because it's proper. [And yet he doesn't seem to blame him, necessarily.] What would a person need to do in order to earn your respect?

[bakaomi]

Not immediately expect it, for one.

[divus]

Besides that. There must be more to it than that.