GODLY AUDIENCES - TAKAOMI SHISHIMARU

[divus]

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[bakaomi]

I'm not sure if "happy" is the right word for it...

[ he doesn't really think he'd be happy with any of the choices, since in the end it's a decision you have to make with zero context ]

But I think I get along with them well. I don't have any reason to switch yet. [ ... ] They called you a good kid.

[divus]

That sounds happy enough. [Happy can be subjective. Still, they pause and appear...a little flustered.] He's...very nice that way, yeah. I think he views most of us as kids, but he's a little hard to connect to sometimes. Aloof, almost. I think he's getting better though now that we've started.

[bakaomi]

I wasn't really expecting to get along with him. The name's a little misleading.

[ he tilts his head slightly, regarding love. ]

Surprisingly into motivational speeches.

[divus]

Appearances can be a little deceiving, can't they. [It sounds like they're teasing him a little.] He says he isn't entirely sure why that name was chosen for him, but I think he needs to dig a little deeper. He's a little lost, too.

[Stop gossiping about the other gods, Love.] He's...wiser than he thinks, too. And I know he doesn't want anyone else getting hurt in this game.

[bakaomi]

He said that he would be okay with someone else winning as long as they can make the world a better place.

[ he pauses. ]

What about you?

[divus]

That sounds like him. [Love pauses then, tilting their head.]

I want to win. That's not even a question. [Love...] But I want to make the world a better place, too.

[bakaomi]

[ listen he would have been surprised if love was also like "i don't mind losing lol" ]

What do you consider better?

[divus]

[That's a bit of a harder question, especially considering the goals Love has in mind.]

Shishimaru-san. I'm going to ask you a question. [A dramatic pause.] Do you know who you are?

[bakaomi]

... I'm guessing you mean in the metaphorical sense?

[ he could have gone with a smartass answer but he chooses not to for once ]

[divus]

Unless there's something in the literal sense you need to tell us, yeah. Metaphorically.

[bakaomi]

... I think I have a better sense of what I'm not, if that makes sense.

[ why are all of you into emotions ]

[divus]

It makes total sense. [Surprise, it's because some of the gods are idiots.] In a better world? It'd be a world where people don't feel like they have to hide themselves or their true feelings. Bonds with other people are the strongest thing there is and with bonds you can get through just about anything.

...when you lie to yourself and you don't really know who you are, or you can't admit the truth, you're not only hurting people but you're hurting yourself. It isn't easy, I get it, but...a world where it's a little easier would be nice. It'd cut down on a ton of problems.

[bakaomi]

[ he's feeling really fucking attacked right now why do all of his conversations with gods end up like this ]

That sounds like an impossible dream, even for a god.

[divus]

[FEEL SOMETHING, TAKA!!!]

What makes it so impossible?

[bakaomi]

[ NO ]

How do you even make people more honest? Snap your fingers and they suddenly change?

[divus]

Build up trust? What else? [Duh.] If people feel like they can trust you they're more likely to tell you things and be open about themselves.

[There's a sigh.] I never said it was perfect, but what's the point if I don't try? I want a world where the truth is out there and the truth prevails, okay?

[bakaomi]

That doesn't seem very godly.

[divus]

[...] Why not? Which part?

[bakaomi]

What would you get out of that?

[divus]

...call it a little bit of insurance. Assurance? Whatever.

[bakaomi]

... if I asked again a later could I get a better answer?

[divus]

I think so. [It's a guess.] It's too much now.

[bakaomi]

Figures.

[ ... ]

Can you guys just not automatically make everyone better?

[divus]

Would you really want us to force it like that?

[bakaomi]

No.

But what I want isn't necessarily the same as what others want.