I think...in part, that was my purpose. To make me think I was something that I wasn't, just to see how much I'd suffer when I learned that everything I thought I knew was just a lie.
[At least, with time to think about it, that's one of the explanations he keeps coming back to.]
[... That's too cruel. Connor doesn't have the right words to express it, or even the proper understanding of his own fledging emotions to wrap his mind around it, but. The idea of it doesn't feel... right. He wants it to, but it doesn't.]
Connor is quiet for a moment. This whole conversation is extremely jarring, and he's. Not sure what to do with it, tbh. But, hey. He can ignore feeheeheelings if he concentrates on facts.]
It happened...when I just felt so hurt and betrayed. When all I had in me, very suddenly, was this thought that I'd been wronged, and how it wasn't fair.
[Justice is quiet for a moment after that.]
Aside from that...no, I don't know. It was just like...I was in a dream, but that old place that I came from was the dream, even though I know that it hadn't been. It's...hard to describe, and it might be different for each of us.
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[At least, with time to think about it, that's one of the explanations he keeps coming back to.]
It didn't mean anything...it was a game.
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... And at the end, what happened?
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[Oof.]
If I should destroy the system that supported me, or if I should just...just pretend. But I never got to make that choice. I ended up here, instead.
why is being canon familiar a curse.........i hate this............
Connor is quiet for a moment. This whole conversation is extremely jarring, and he's. Not sure what to do with it, tbh. But, hey. He can ignore feeheeheelings if he concentrates on facts.]
"Here." [...] You ended up in the Temple?
IT REALLY IS THO
Oh, no, I just mean...as a god, outside of my own world. As "Justice" instead of as what I was before. But I can't really tell that I'm any different.
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[Justice is quiet for a moment after that.]
Aside from that...no, I don't know. It was just like...I was in a dream, but that old place that I came from was the dream, even though I know that it hadn't been. It's...hard to describe, and it might be different for each of us.
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[Is that related? It's a mystery.]
If I may ask... Do you know how it was for the others? Or is that something I should ask them myself?
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Only a couple of them have told me, so you'd be better off asking them directly. It might be different for everyone.