I heard everything that was said at that trial...that what's happening is disgusting, that this is my "unjust" brand of justice...that it doesn't matter how much I hate what's happening, because my hands are stained, too.
[They seem to shrink into themselves more.]
And it's true, I am. It's my fault. All my fault. I thought that when I had a chance to host, I could prove that I can do a good job, that just because I get...I get scared, doesn't mean that I can't do it. But four people died, and I had to tell people to vote for someone innocent, and nothing I did was helpful or good.
I just wish...more people would trust me enough to support me. But I understand...why that's not going to happen. As long as I keep losing followers, I just can't help but think that I'm worthless.
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[And as such, she's taking a seat on a nearby swing, ridiculous coat and all.]
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[They almost say "okay" but instead, their head droops.]
I feel like a failure.
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Why do you say that?
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[They seem to shrink into themselves more.]
And it's true, I am. It's my fault. All my fault. I thought that when I had a chance to host, I could prove that I can do a good job, that just because I get...I get scared, doesn't mean that I can't do it. But four people died, and I had to tell people to vote for someone innocent, and nothing I did was helpful or good.
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...Did you tell people to go out and kill each other?
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[It sounds like they're going to cry, but they seem to be holding it in.]
If I'd been stronger, if I hadn't been so scared, we never would have had rules like these in the first place. The...eliminations, and all of that.
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[But, more importantly:]
You can cry if you need to.
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[It just feels different.]
I just want to be stronger.
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[They look up, just a little.]
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Yeah. I know some people said some pretty harsh stuff in the trial, but... A lot of people trust you, you know?
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[Okay, Justice has no rebuttal, honestly.]
They're all so much more confident than I am.
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Confidence is something you have to work for. It doesn’t just get easier on it’s own.
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Well, I'm glad I could help.