senri's at least gotten most of the tears out of the way by the time that he's seen sincerity - but also like. it's obvious that he was. he made up to to the door without crying, but tears fall from his eye once he sees sincerity anyway. he's going to immediately accept the hug and lean into it and.
[Sincerity will just rub gentle circles into his back. There, there, Senri...]
You've made strong connections with people during your time here. It'd be a little strange if you were completely eager to go home... You're the kind of person who doesn't want to leave anyone behind.
... I don't know why I wanted to hear you say that I'm being irrational. Maybe it'd be easier, if I told myself that it wasn't alright to feel this way....?
[he's so greedy. though at least he recognizes as much.
but it's not the same if sincerity is in his heart and his mind, because - kuranosuke isn't there to hold onto his hand, or give him hugs, or share giant blanket piles, or help hand him outfits when he can't decide what to wear.
there won't be a pair of arms that he can run to, whenever he gets upset]
...hey, hey. Just think of it as, like... moving away.
[He's moving from one world to another, not one neighborhood to another - so it's not quite the same thing. Sincerity seems to know that, because he puts an arm around Senri's shoulders and gives him a little squeeze.]
It'll be all right, Sen-chan. You're stronger than you think.
[ . . . . and senri will just lean into the touch, sighing as he does. he wipes at his face, to try to get the tears to disappear, gaze drifting off to the side]
... I mean - yeah, I'm not feeling too strong right now.
[ . . . ]
I've never really had to deal with anyone I was close to moving away. I guess I just never ended up that close to people, that I would notice too starkly if they had to go somewhere else.
It's... different now. Really different. I'm grateful, but it's also...
Not really. It's new and it's confusing; it would be kind of weird if you didn't complain.
But you're getting sad about leaving at the end of this, instead of using the time you still have here to make memories that will make you smile when you look back on them. Is this what you want to remember once you go home?
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WEEK 5
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senri's at least gotten most of the tears out of the way by the time that he's seen sincerity - but also like. it's obvious that he was. he made up to to the door without crying, but tears fall from his eye once he sees sincerity anyway. he's going to immediately accept the hug and lean into it and.
cling a little.]
.... It doesn't make sense, right?
To - not want to leave this place.
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[Sincerity will just rub gentle circles into his back. There, there, Senri...]
You've made strong connections with people during your time here. It'd be a little strange if you were completely eager to go home... You're the kind of person who doesn't want to leave anyone behind.
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... I don't know why I wanted to hear you say that I'm being irrational. Maybe it'd be easier, if I told myself that it wasn't alright to feel this way....?
[but
this also helps, in a way]
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[And besides...]
Getting over it by saying it's not okay to feel that way is just slapping a band-aid on it. It won't make it better.
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Mm.... It's just - a weird feeling. To have something that I.... don't want to lose.
[when he's never had it before]
I'm going to miss you - even more than how I felt when I wasn't on your team - I'm going to miss you so much.
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[he taps a finger over Senri's heart.]
Here.
[and then he taps a finger against his temple.]
And here.
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Yeah, but... ah, it's not the same...
[he's so greedy. though at least he recognizes as much.
but it's not the same if sincerity is in his heart and his mind, because - kuranosuke isn't there to hold onto his hand, or give him hugs, or share giant blanket piles, or help hand him outfits when he can't decide what to wear.
there won't be a pair of arms that he can run to, whenever he gets upset]
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[He's moving from one world to another, not one neighborhood to another - so it's not quite the same thing. Sincerity seems to know that, because he puts an arm around Senri's shoulders and gives him a little squeeze.]
It'll be all right, Sen-chan. You're stronger than you think.
[...]
And you know it's true, because I can say it.
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... I mean - yeah, I'm not feeling too strong right now.
[ . . . ]
I've never really had to deal with anyone I was close to moving away. I guess I just never ended up that close to people, that I would notice too starkly if they had to go somewhere else.
It's... different now. Really different. I'm grateful, but it's also...
[hard to learn what it's like to lose]
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...tough to get used to?
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... yeah.
It feels silly - that I always wanted people to care about me. I never thought about how much it could hurt, too.
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Sen-chan...
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But you're getting sad about leaving at the end of this, instead of using the time you still have here to make memories that will make you smile when you look back on them. Is this what you want to remember once you go home?