GODLY AUDIENCES: SENRI

[divus]

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[divus]

...it's what I usually tell myself, yes. [A philosophy he agrees with and understands.] I would rather think of the happy moments than the sad ones that broke us apart, but sometimes it's unexpected.

...I don't think I could ever bring myself to truly stop reaching out to people, but there's always the risk. I understand that now, but even knowing that I think it's worth it. I just wish it wasn't so soon. I'm happiest when other people are happy, so I want to reach as many as I can.

["Even at my own expense" is implied even if it's unsaid.]

...thank you, Senri. [There's a soft laugh.] Sorry for troubling you.

[usogi]

[senri settles for quietly shaking his head at that, though not enough to pull away from tamaki's touch. he lets his own hand trace down tamaki's cheek before settling against the curve of his jaw]

Please don't say sorry, when I asked you to tell me. When, even though I'm sharing your sadness with you, I'm really happy to know that you aren't holding it by yourself anymore. I don't want you to have to...

[ . . . ]

It's okay - to want more time. I want more time, too. Even if we might not get what we want... it's not wrong to hold the hope in your heart anyway.

It's hope that drives people forward, after all.

[divus]

[He leans into Senri's hand, horribly fond and a little broken but comfortable this way.]

I know. I know, it's…difficult, I think, to share these things. Because I don't want people to be sad because of me. But I can try, I guess. [There's a smile.] I believe that's what I should be saying to you, however.

[That's a very Tamaki line, thanks.]

[usogi]

[senri will just brush his thumb against tamaki's cheek as he gives him a smile, thoughtful and sincere]

... I'd be sadder if you kept it to yourself, Tamaki. [without bothering with a nickname] So... please let me carry it with you, even if we aren't able to find answers. I just don't want you to feel like you're a burden.

You're never a burden to me.

[divus]

[It's hard to justify that, but sure. He nods in understanding and closes his eyes a bit.]

Thank you...for everything. I think you've once again underestimated yourself.

[usogi]

[senri pauses at that before shaking his head]

... I'm learning. Everyday.

I think that's all it is... and we can learn together, as much as you want.

[divus]

...I think we can try that. But you'll forgive me if I don't share this with anyone else or anything, won't you?

[usogi]

There's nothing to forgive.

[easily]

... It's hard to let people in that much. If it's just me, or Mizuki-san... I'll understand. Old habits are hard to break, too.

[divus]

[Tell that to you boyfriend five days in the future, Senri.]

I don't know if I can tell Mizuki-san everything either. They don't need to trouble themselves with these things in addition to their own worries. But...thank you for understanding.

[usogi]

[he doesn't know!!!!

but senri will just blink at that before just moving to brush some of tamaki's hair out of his face fondly]

... okay.

But in exchange, please make sure to be honest with me.

I'll keep being honest with you too.

[divus]

Then...that settles it. We can be honest. [Maybe. Until Tamaki doesn't bother telling Senri how rude his emos are.]

..it will be alright.