... Connor-san said that he read her diary. She said that after talking with you, she got upset that someone told her that she was growing a lot - and then went to you to say that they were going to try to give you a majority so Bambi didn't win.
He said that she was upset enough that she was crying.
Do you think that I'm truly the type of person that would paint you in such a bad light? That I'd resort to petty trickery?
[He sighs, easy cheer gone from his expression.]
I told her because she's my friend and because the two of us have an alliance. I told her because if I didn't, she'd believe that I orchestrated a plot to purposefully betray her trust. I care too much about her to lead her astray, so I told her what to expect.
So why is she doubting that I'm her friend, Pippin? When I told her that I was still working on trying to figure out how to get the most wishes granted? How come she thinks that I've been lying to her?
How come you told her that you tried to talk me out of convincing everyone to join you - as if I'm some cold-hearted monster that was ready to let her down at any second....?!
[Ion takes a long moment to let Senri let out his emotions.]
Senri, I know that you care about her. Don't ever think for an instant that I'd have told her that you were trying to sabotage her, or even that I said you were orchestrating any kind of plot against her. You're a deeply kind, deeply emotional person. I admire that about you very much.
[He stands.]
Ambition is very like you in those ways, too. She loves deeply and hurts just as fiercely. The worst thing either of you can do is react quickly and lash out at the first or easiest target you find. Ambition is taking her time to sort out her thoughts. If she's not answering you, consider that she's matured enough to understand when she needs to take the time to think through her emotions before she says something she regrets.
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Diaries are very personal, and meant not to be read for that reason. What she wrote there may have been to help herself work through what she was feeling. She was always going to be hurt, Senri, because winning this means so much more to her than possibly anyone else here...because she desperately feels the need to prove herself for validation.
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I told her that I asked you to reconsider having everyone join me because that's exactly what I did. I told you that ultimately, I think it would be better if I didn't win, because I don't need to win to be able to obtain the platform that's been my goal since the beginning. I did not, at any point, tell her that you bullied me, that you connived, that you conspired, or that you ever spoke poorly of her. I never stated that you didn't believe in her, or that you didn't want her to win, or that the responsibility of all of this is on your shoulders.
[He frowns.]
You do realize that, don't you? There are too many of you here for you to put this all upon yourself. The stress is eating away at you, it's clear as day.
... you know it makes it difficult to want to talk to you, if I run the risk of just being a topic of conversation. I get that enough already amongst participants.
I told you things in confidence, even though you know how scared I was of things going badly with Bambi. I get it. You're going to have to be the one who deals with all the other gods the longest, because you'll still be here. So maybe that was the strategic move for you to tell her.
My friendship is still suffering, though. The core of it is my fault, I guess, for not being able to choose sooner -
But forgive me if I'm exactly inspired to pour my heart out to you anymore, Piety-san. I tried for truth and it still somehow got messed up somewhere along the way.
If you ever change your mind, I'm always here to help. But it's up to you to decide who you put your trust in, and I apologize for the hurt that this caused. I don't blame you for your disdain. I'm glad you have so many people that you can turn to, so you won't have to ever feel alone.
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confused and more than a little hurt]
... why won't Bambi see me, Pippin?
I waited for her, and made the parfait just the way she likes it - but she won't see me.
Do you know why?
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[His brow furrows.]
She's probably feeling a bit overwhelmed with everything that's been happening this week. It's a very stressful time for everyone, after all.
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... Connor-san said that he read her diary. She said that after talking with you, she got upset that someone told her that she was growing a lot - and then went to you to say that they were going to try to give you a majority so Bambi didn't win.
He said that she was upset enough that she was crying.
What did you tell her about me, Pippin?
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Did you lead with the fact that she's my friend, and if it was just me then I would make sure that she won?
Or did you tell her that I was just trying to get people to switch to you?
And besides - why did you tell her? You're the one who warned me that she might be upset in the first place...!! Were you trying to trick me?
[his voice trembles - he might be feeling a little betrayed himself]
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[He sighs, easy cheer gone from his expression.]
I told her because she's my friend and because the two of us have an alliance. I told her because if I didn't, she'd believe that I orchestrated a plot to purposefully betray her trust. I care too much about her to lead her astray, so I told her what to expect.
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As if this has been easy for me.
Got it.
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[Ion shakes his head.]
I'm sorry that that's what you think; I never meant to make you feel as if you've ever taken any of this lightly.
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How come you told her that you tried to talk me out of convincing everyone to join you - as if I'm some cold-hearted monster that was ready to let her down at any second....?!
[he shuts his eye and shakes his head]
Is this your idea of mediating?
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Senri, I know that you care about her. Don't ever think for an instant that I'd have told her that you were trying to sabotage her, or even that I said you were orchestrating any kind of plot against her. You're a deeply kind, deeply emotional person. I admire that about you very much.
[He stands.]
Ambition is very like you in those ways, too. She loves deeply and hurts just as fiercely. The worst thing either of you can do is react quickly and lash out at the first or easiest target you find. Ambition is taking her time to sort out her thoughts. If she's not answering you, consider that she's matured enough to understand when she needs to take the time to think through her emotions before she says something she regrets.
[...]
Diaries are very personal, and meant not to be read for that reason. What she wrote there may have been to help herself work through what she was feeling. She was always going to be hurt, Senri, because winning this means so much more to her than possibly anyone else here...because she desperately feels the need to prove herself for validation.
[...]
I told her that I asked you to reconsider having everyone join me because that's exactly what I did. I told you that ultimately, I think it would be better if I didn't win, because I don't need to win to be able to obtain the platform that's been my goal since the beginning. I did not, at any point, tell her that you bullied me, that you connived, that you conspired, or that you ever spoke poorly of her. I never stated that you didn't believe in her, or that you didn't want her to win, or that the responsibility of all of this is on your shoulders.
[He frowns.]
You do realize that, don't you? There are too many of you here for you to put this all upon yourself. The stress is eating away at you, it's clear as day.
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... you know it makes it difficult to want to talk to you, if I run the risk of just being a topic of conversation. I get that enough already amongst participants.
I told you things in confidence, even though you know how scared I was of things going badly with Bambi. I get it. You're going to have to be the one who deals with all the other gods the longest, because you'll still be here. So maybe that was the strategic move for you to tell her.
My friendship is still suffering, though. The core of it is my fault, I guess, for not being able to choose sooner -
But forgive me if I'm exactly inspired to pour my heart out to you anymore, Piety-san. I tried for truth and it still somehow got messed up somewhere along the way.
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[Piety bows.]
If you ever change your mind, I'm always here to help. But it's up to you to decide who you put your trust in, and I apologize for the hurt that this caused. I don't blame you for your disdain. I'm glad you have so many people that you can turn to, so you won't have to ever feel alone.
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I'll see you later, probably.
Take care tonight.
[and he's out!!!! ishipapa will probably have to give him a good kick later]