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[personal profile] ritualization 2019-03-01 09:42 pm (UTC)(link)
As am I. This is... more than I anticipated.

[He shakes his head, there, and he doesn't come over to join Piety or take a seat anywhere. Instead, he kneels, hands folded on his knees, head bowed.]

I am sorry it has already come to this, and-- I am afraid there's something else I must apologize to you for. Something else I must ask, rather.
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[personal profile] ritualization 2019-03-01 09:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Then I will get to the point.

[There's still a pause there, though, before he continues.]

Please understand I wouldn't consider this if I didn't feel that it was necessary, but-- would you still be willing to trust me if I were to leave your service?

[His head remains bowed, not looking up to Piety-- in fact, that bow deepens somewhat.]

You still have my support in your goal, and I intend to return to you when I am able, but right now, I... there is something I feel that I must do.
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[personal profile] ritualization 2019-03-01 10:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[The slightest bit of tension eases out of him at their words and that touch, the set of his shoulders minutely less stiff; he exhales heavily, and a bit more of it goes along with his breath.]

Truthfully, that makes me want to remain even more. Perhaps even though I have not often been wielded, it is not in my nature to be very disloyal.

[Ishi manages to look up there, though.]

But I cannot... I have to do something. We shared a house, I saw him just last night, and yet-- there was nothing I could have done. No way I could have acted.

[His fingertips dig into the cloth beneath them. It's not sadness behind all this; it's anger. At whoever did this, at himself.]

What good is a blade that can't protect anyone when they need it most?
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[personal profile] ritualization 2019-03-02 01:46 am (UTC)(link)
I can understand that I had no personal fault in it. That doesn't make it any easier to bear.

[A sigh, and-]

Especially considering the extent of it all, this time.
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[personal profile] ritualization 2019-03-02 01:57 am (UTC)(link)
I certainly didn't anticipate this level of enthusiasm, either.

[It's going to be a real problem if this continues.

He takes a moment to gather his thoughts, though, before continuing.]


I plan to speak with Merriment. If I had the ability to remain active at night, I might be able to prevent this happening in the future-- at the very least, I could protect anyone I may be with that night.

...I don't mean to hide my intentions, however. If they are displeased with my reasons for wanting to join them, I will respect that.
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[personal profile] ritualization 2019-03-02 03:24 am (UTC)(link)
...thank you.

[He still doesn't feel good about it, exactly, but-- better, certainly, and he finally pushes himself back to his feet.]

And despite this, please-- call on me if you should need me. I have no intention of abandoning you, regardless of who I may follow.