Nothing, [ he says, very soft. ] Nothing yet. I wouldn't have done anything without talking to you first.
... Kaname-san is switching to Cunning to keep him alive this week. ... I was going to make the same offer, if it was needed. I'm -- [ god, he struggles with the words. ] I'm sorry. For thinking it, when I said I wouldn't.
[Yet. The action isn't there, but the thought of intention is and it crushes her more than she wants to admit. She already knows things are going to change, but to lose a follower...
...it's the right thing to do. She knows that, but...]
...that's very brave and selfless of you, Yu-kun. [Why does the name keep changing.] Not many people would make that kind of sacrifice to help save someone else, especially someone people are afraid of. You...have to use your best judgment, okay? I can't tell you what to do, because that's not listening to what your heart's telling you and I know you know better than that. Your sense of justice won't let anybody else get left behind anyway.
[ God. He knows. And it crushes him to even say it to her, knowing-- the pain is right there on his face, because he's too raw tonight to hide it. ]
Her voice--
[ His own voice cracks. ]
Ambition, she sounded like how I felt when I watched Izanami-- I couldn't. I couldn't stand by, I... I'm so sorry.
[ He whispers this, feeling like he's falling to pieces, because he shouldn't burden Love with his feelings like this. It isn't his feelings that matter.
(It never has been.)
Yu will shake his head, the motion rough. ]
Kaname-san saved us both. I believe you when you say one follower should be enough to save him. And she ... she told me to stay with the god I believe in. She's doing this for so many people, and I--
...will you protect her? If she...how long will she stay? That's a sacrifice, too, to pick a temperamental god.
[She still isn't sure what to think of all of this, being careful not to say anything about Ambition at this point, or Izanami. Love knows the circumstances Yu's referring to, of course, by nature of divinity but she's not callous enough to bring it up.]
[ That's a hard question to answer. He stares at the floor. ]
... if I can. I'm sure she'd insist she didn't need it. [ this said mildly. ] ... it is a sacrifice. I asked her if she was sure, and she didn't seem likely to change her mind. We're going together, to meet Cunning.
[ ... ]
I'm aware we can't protect Cunning forever. We can't do that for any of the gods. In the end, there will only be one, unless we find another way to end the game. ... and we all saw how that went. [ shuts his eyes, shakes his head -- moves on. ] I know that.
Just be careful? [It's uncertain still, but she trusts him all the same.] You'll make the right decision. I know you will. And maybe it's a little dumb to worry but I don't want to see a repeat of what happened today. What happened to Fortune should have never happened. But...if we can protect everyone for another few weeks, the game will be over.
... six weeks, right? [ Said softly. ] At the end of six weeks, however many gods or participants are left ... whoever has the most followers wins. Is that right?
I can't say I'd want to see what that would look like. [ murmured softly, with a small shake of his head. ]
... I'll be careful, [ he'll add after a moment, returning to her earlier request. ] Right decision or not, I went back on my word to you by thinking about this plan at all.
[ I'm yours, he'd said.
And it was true-- ]
I have no right to say it now, but I'll keep trying my hardest to protect you.
...I know. You have so many people you want to protect and it's hard sometimes. I understand. [...sigh.] We'll be okay. I'll do my best to protect you no matter where you go, too.
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... Kaname-san is switching to Cunning to keep him alive this week. ... I was going to make the same offer, if it was needed. I'm -- [ god, he struggles with the words. ] I'm sorry. For thinking it, when I said I wouldn't.
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...it's the right thing to do. She knows that, but...]
...that's very brave and selfless of you, Yu-kun. [Why does the name keep changing.] Not many people would make that kind of sacrifice to help save someone else, especially someone people are afraid of. You...have to use your best judgment, okay? I can't tell you what to do, because that's not listening to what your heart's telling you and I know you know better than that. Your sense of justice won't let anybody else get left behind anyway.
[...] Do you think it's needed based on that?
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Her voice--
[ His own voice cracks. ]
Ambition, she sounded like how I felt when I watched Izanami-- I couldn't. I couldn't stand by, I... I'm so sorry.
[ He whispers this, feeling like he's falling to pieces, because he shouldn't burden Love with his feelings like this. It isn't his feelings that matter.
(It never has been.)
Yu will shake his head, the motion rough. ]
Kaname-san saved us both. I believe you when you say one follower should be enough to save him. And she ... she told me to stay with the god I believe in. She's doing this for so many people, and I--
... [ so soft ] I'm so proud of her.
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[She still isn't sure what to think of all of this, being careful not to say anything about Ambition at this point, or Izanami. Love knows the circumstances Yu's referring to, of course, by nature of divinity but she's not callous enough to bring it up.]
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... if I can. I'm sure she'd insist she didn't need it. [ this said mildly. ] ... it is a sacrifice. I asked her if she was sure, and she didn't seem likely to change her mind. We're going together, to meet Cunning.
[ ... ]
I'm aware we can't protect Cunning forever. We can't do that for any of the gods. In the end, there will only be one, unless we find another way to end the game. ... and we all saw how that went. [ shuts his eyes, shakes his head -- moves on. ] I know that.
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I hope.
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... I'll be careful, [ he'll add after a moment, returning to her earlier request. ] Right decision or not, I went back on my word to you by thinking about this plan at all.
[ I'm yours, he'd said.
And it was true-- ]
I have no right to say it now, but I'll keep trying my hardest to protect you.
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["Stay with me" also goes unsaid.]