GODLY AUDIENCES - TAKAOMI SHISHIMARU

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[divus]

I didn't think I'd have to figure out how to do things after things in my world. I had a plan, and yeah, fine, becoming a god wasn't as easy as I assumed it'd be. But it was better than the original plan.

[...] ...clarity. That's what this is, and that's the weird part about it. I want to create a fair and good world, but I keep remembering things I've been forgetting.

[bakaomi]

[ he reaches out for another slice of pizza, but he nibbles at it more than anything. ]

Do you think it's helping?

[ because he knows that what the gods have learned while here have been varying greatly, and some lessons have been more positive than others. ]

[divus]

[There's a brief time he's considering that.]

...I don't regret what choice I made when I voted to make this a killing game, because you guys still get to come back and that's a luckier situation than some people ever get. But I think if I'd known then what I know now I would've thought about it a little more before immediately backing Ruin's suggestion.

[bakaomi]

... I'm still mad about that, but I can't be too upset because I agreed to come here.

[ he is just. so traumatized because he is the wrong genre for this. he was so unprepared for this level of bullshit. ]

But... in the end, I think there was more good than bad. The bad still sucked though. A lot.

[divus]

You did. ...but I get it. Sometimes you agree to stuff without realizing what the hell you're getting into. The bad sucks a lot. Dying sucks a lot. The whole thing kind of sucks a lot but if you're getting something good out of it maybe we didn't screw up that much.

[He takes another slice of pizza just because.] ...it's almost over. At least it's just a couple of months.

[bakaomi]

People can forget if they want, right?

[ since merriment had implied they could, a few weeks back. ]

[divus]

Yeah. It'd be kind of a dick move if we didn't give you that option. Thinking of taking it after all?

[bakaomi]

... nah.

[ if things had gone very, very differently, then maybe. but. ]

Senri would kill me. [ ... ] And I'm already enough of a coward without that.

[divus]

...yeah. You and me both. [Hm.] Can't say I'd blame anybody who did take the option. It's appealing, I get it. But it's a whole personal choice thing.

[bakaomi]

... how would it work if you got your wish? You'll just suddenly get what you want without remembering how it happened?

[divus]

Pretty sure if we can erase your memories, we could change them to think you earned it yourself somehow. But that's just a guess.

[bakaomi]

Ugh.

[ he'd be pissed, even if in this situation he would not know why he would be pissed ]

[divus]

...revival was partially my idea. So I could probably figure out the mechanics. I'm one of the only ones with any experience in a world where rebirth exists. So I figure if I take that same idea but without actually doing a full mindwipe...it'd work.

[But it's still stupid and he knows that.]

Makes me wonder how many of you are actually going to want to forget though.

[bakaomi]

I dunno... it's hard to tell what people are thinking.

[ that's more taka's fault than anything. he's not sure if he's particularly close to anyone enough to really be able to gauge that. ]

[divus]

I stopped trying after a while to be honest. [A shrug.]

...sort of hard to believe this thing's almost over. It's going to be a pretty close race to the end. [...] You're going to really stay with your god until the end?

[He doesn't sound like he cares one way or another, but he's curious.]

[bakaomi]

I want to.

[ he knows merriment isn't going to win, but... ]

I'll have to see what next week looks like. But... it's what I'll prefer.

[divus]

Loyal. [It's a thoughtful sort of tone.]

...even after everything, I think Guy might stick around. Everybody else is up in the air. You guys are gonna have to watch the numbers really close in the last week.

[bakaomi]

I have no idea what it'll look like at this point. This week is pretty even, but...

[ people are

so unloyal ]

[divus]

I know. [...] It's why I'm worried about Ambition.

[bakaomi]

[ he frowns ]

Why?

[divus]

You've seen the fluctuation in numbers, haven't you? Why wouldn't I be worried about that?

[bakaomi]

[ yes but he wanted to hear him say it. ]

... she takes it really personally, too.

[divus]

I know. She's just a kid, this competion's been rough on her even when she was in the lead. [Ambition is the one person Cunning is actually soft for. ] Figured people like you and Senri are going to keep trying to talk to her anyway at least but...I dunno.

[bakaomi]

There's only so much you can do.

[ you can try to support someone, but if she doesn't actually believe in the support. ]

I think some people treat her like she's older.

[divus]

Oh, they do. [Which also pisses him off a little.] And I don't blame them. She's smart and she's capable and she's a lot more mature than most people. […] She's still fourteen. And when you have a lot of people trying to bargain and counting on you to create the best possible scenario? That's a lot of pressure either way.

[There's a sigh.] …my entire life's been dictated by girls who know what they're doing and forget how to be a kid. I shouldn't be surprised, but I can at least try to monitor things from my end.