GODLY AUDIENCES: LUKE FON FABRE

[divus]

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[divus]

Oh, Luke...

[When Ion reaches him, what else can he do but, sitting daintily down beside him, wrap his arms around his friend? Honestly, he's never seen Luke seeing like he needed a hug more than this moment.]

I'm so sorry.

[dupelicate]

[He closes his eyes, as Ion wraps his arms around him, breathing in—and out, in a long, raggedy exhale.]

It's okay.

[It was easy to let go, like this—try and forget this whole morning. Pretend the trial wasn't going to happen tomorrow. Forget everything he already knew.]

I'm okay.

[divus]

...it's okay if you aren't. You don't need to pretend. Sometimes, things are too difficult to face properly.

[Ion shakes his head just slightly.]

Take...all of the time you need.

[dupelicate]

Guy killed Zoe.

[he blurts it out, apropos of nothing, voice tired and numb.]

I don't even know why.

[divus]

...I know.

[Ion's voice is a soft, sad whisper.]

Luke, I'm sorry.

[dupelicate]

What do I do?

[his shoulders fall a little more]

I tried to ask him some questions, but... I don't know, he couldn't answer them at all. What am I supposed to do?

[divus]

Sometimes...there's not really an answer. At least not in concerns to what you should do.

[He shakes his head.]

I'm sorry, Luke. The most you can do is decide what...your heart tells you to do with what you know, regardless of how much it may hurt.

[dupelicate]

[...

It's not helpful.

But it's not wrong, either.]

I don't even know what I want to do. I don't know how to... I don't know what my heart wants.

[Even saying it out loud sounds stupid. His heart? What did that even mean? It's frustrating, and it's hard not to show it even more. But letting go now would mean... thinking about...

...]

I have to decide before tomorrow no matter what.