GODLY AUDIENCES - TAKAOMI SHISHIMARU

[divus]

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[bakaomi]

[ ... ]

Can you?

[divus]

Yes. [He seems pretty serious as well, head turned toward the window again.]

...even in the end, despite the friends I've made in all of you and the good memories to come from it, I recognize that I've lost this competition and my luck's run out. I wonder if I had taken this more seriously and focused on myself if anything would have changed.

[He hates that idea though.] The impact that other people leave isn't simple. Even after years of separation...you're a changed person.

[What in the fuck is he talking about.] ...and I wonder...if it will help or if it will hurt more to know you all exist but are still somewhere we can't reach.

[bakaomi]

Who the fuck knows?

[ he keeps idly petting antoinette, looking down at her instead of over at tamaki. ]

But it's a little annoying hearing you talk like this, especially after you spent most of the game lecturing me on the important of reaching out to people and making connections and understanding others. You can't just change your mind like that.

[divus]

[He blinks in surprise, suddenly a little unsure.]

Sorry. My apologies. [He straightens up and adjusts his posture a bit, turning to look at Taka again with a light smile on his face.] My mind hasn't been changed. I do still believe those things are important.

[Those things also just, coincidentally, hurt like hell.] Do you feel you've come to understand people any better than before?

[bakaomi]

Don't change the topic to me.

[ it's muttered. ]

That's not what matters here.

[divus]

Doesn't it? I think it's still important.

[bakaomi]

No. I decided that we're going to give you a therapy session for once!

[divus]

What makes you think I need a therapy session!?

[bakaomi]

Uh. This entire fucking conversation?

[ hewwo?? ]

[divus]

How insulting. [There's not much of a bite though because like. Yeah.]

I've already burdened enough people, Shishimaru-kun. The game's almost over. [He bothered two whole people.]

[bakaomi]

Yeah. And? What's your point?

[ :/ ]

[divus]

[He goes quiet, puffing out his cheeks a little before he settles again. There's silence.]

...what do you want, exactly? [It's tired and uncertain and he's not really sure what Taka's angle is on this.]

[bakaomi]

You're getting on my nerves so we're going to talk about it.

[ he presses a kiss to the top of the dog's head. ]

It's my fault you're so... emo.

[divus]

[Antoinette licks Taka's face again. At least she's not a moron.]

If I'm bothering you so much, you can always leave. [Just a suggestion. But...] I am not emo. You are the emo here.

[No.] The only thing you've done is point out the facts and abided by my requests. [After all, Tamaki's the one who asked Taka to flat-out ask him whatever he was holding back.]

[bakaomi]

And now you're...

[ depressed. broken. miserable. ]

Would you rather have not met any of us?

[divus]

Perfectly fine, Shishimaru-kun. [Gently. He actually believes that, so let him say it.]

Absolutely not. Meeting you all has been wonderful. I never would trade that experience for anything. I've befriended so many of you that it's made this competition a little more fun.

[bakaomi]

But?

[ there's a but. ]

[divus]

But nothing, I think. [...] Until this game is over, I plan to ensure everyone else enjoys themselves each day. And that will be enough.

[bakaomi]

What happens after the game is over then?

[divus]

You get to go home and we'll be here in charge of the new world. We'll have to create something based on whoever wins, and we'll have to learn to work together.

[...] This isn't the first time I've separated from people, Shishimaru-kun. It will be alright. [Is that what Taka's worried about? He's not sure, but it's a conclusion he can draw from the line of questions.]

[bakaomi]

Your whole attitude changed as soon as I said therapy. You were acting like Batman right before.

[divus]

I thought people liked Batman. [Is this actually a problem?]

[bakaomi]

Not the cool part of Batman. The mopey, emo part!

[divus]

I'm not reject Batman! [HUFF.] Why don't you just ask Senri?

[bakaomi]

Why would I ask Senri when you're right here? Do you know how much time it'll waste for me to go to Senri then come back here and have to give you a whole other offering?

[ :/ ]