GODLY AUDIENCES - TAKAOMI SHISHIMARU

[divus]

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[divus]

[A surprised blink.]

...you have nothing to apologize for? Except for threats against my dog. [Has he talked himself into the idea that being upset is his own fault? It's more likely than you think.]

[bakaomi]

I wasn't threatening her. It's not like I wasn't going to walk her or bring her back the next day.

[ wait he was apologizing not picking a fight

anyway ]

You wouldn't have gotten this upset if I hadn't said anything.

[divus]

[Ah.]

...I may have, though perhaps not as soon. [He can admit that much.] I should apologize to you for burdening you with this. It wasn't exactly your fault.

[...well some things are Taka's fault but he's still justified, so it's fine.] This isn't the first time I've been separated from people and I assume it won't be the last. That's life. You simply have to go forward and live each day as though it's for the best.

[...help...]

[bakaomi]

But you're forcing yourself to do that.

How is it even for the best if you don't even believe that it is?

[divus]

How do you know I don't believe that? [Just raising an eyebrow.] It's what I've believed in for years, Shishimaru-kun. I want what's best for everyone every day.

[bakaomi]

I'm not saying for everyone. I'm talking about you.

Is it the best for yourself?

[divus]

Yes, because I can't break my promise. So I do what I must to continue.

Regardless...you didn't know and while there were better ways than approaching me with a book I understand the sentiment. How could you have known about everything else? As I've said, it wasn't exactly your fault and as a god it was inappropriate of me.

[...no. You know what. No.] I can't be the type of person who ignores my bonds. It's more painful to do that than acknowledging them. So I'm afraid we'll have to agree to disagree on that point.

[bakaomi]

... what? Asking you to tone it down just slightly is telling you to ignore it altogether? Really. I didn't tell you to stop doing-- whatever the hell it is you do with him. You... you shouldn't even have-- ...

[ this isn't how he wanted this conversation to go. he takes a breath. ]

I don't see how me not wanting someone to hold my damn boyfriend like a lover where I can see it is that terrible. Or it probably is, since it apparently... turned into this huge mess, and I am the asshole here.

[divus]

It isn't just about Senri, Shishimaru. [No -kun this time. Just a firm tone for the moment.

But. Wait. Wait, wait, wait. What the hell.]

...what the hell do you think I'm doing with him?

[bakaomi]

Nothing.

[ MOVING ON BACK TO THE OTHER TOPIC RIGHT NOW ]

What else is it about then?

[divus]

No, no, we're not done with that. What are you thinking happens when Senri and I are alone?

[bakaomi]

Considering how close you get in public I can imagine what happen when you're alone. Next topic.

[divus]

...I'm not doing anything lewd with him, you realize.

[bakaomi]

... whatever.

[ he doesn't know what to say to that, so he goes back to a conversation switch ]

You know, other gods are trying to see if we can still see you guys. You're not the only one who wants that.

[divus]

I suppose that's a good thing. It means that whoever wins may be more than willing to find a way to accomplish it. Which other gods have backed the idea?

[bakaomi]

Love and Merriment, Cunning and I kind of touched on the subject but we hadn't discussed it flat out like we're doing now, but... I think a bunch of the others would, too, so I need to talk about it with them as well.

I think all of you have people you don't want to lose.

[divus]

[I hate that a.) it's all my gods and b.) it took me five minutes to realize they're all my gods.]

You're correct. I know there are several of us who have befriended several of you. It's going to take a high amount of power, I think, to allow it though, especially so that it doesn't interfere too badly with the rulings of your own worlds.

...it was hard to predict that we would grow close to any of you with the kind of competition we're running.

[bakaomi]

You guys probably thought we were all going to hate you.

[ ... ]

My point is that... you shouldn't just assume that this is going to be another goodbye. It's not over yet.

[divus]

Yes. Which would have been justified considering what we've put you through here.

[...he looks out the window again.] I suppose you're right. I've grown used to them, but I think I hadn't really thought about that fact until you brought it up last week. [...] What exactly did Senri tell you?

[bakaomi]

[ there's another stab of guilt, but he moves on ]

He mentioned the girl and that friend of yours, and... that you don't know where your mom is. You're lonely.

[ senri didn't really go into specific details, but. ]

[divus]

...she's still in Paris, probably. [To answer the last point.] I picked godhood knowing what it would mean, but I suppose I thought there would still be something different that I could use to accomplish my goals and keep my promises.

...Haruhi would say that I'm an idiot. Kyoya, too. [But he doesn't sound too bothered by that.] ...so would the twins, but they don't count.

[bakaomi]

... it kind of sounds like when we said yes to competing.

[ they knew the risks, but a lot of them still thought things would work out differently, taka included. ]

... you kind of are an idiot.

[divus]

...Hikaru told me to stop holding back, so I did. And then I ascended.

[There's a slight laugh though.] Perhaps I am, but I still think...[He shakes his head.] People like Senri and Mizuki-san and yourself have made this more fun for me.

[bakaomi]

[ he tilts his head ]

All I've done is try kidnapping your dog.

[divus]

Untrue. You continued to meet with me and tell me about yourself...and your music. [The real reason there were guitars at Ouran was because Tamaki wanted to give Taka an outlet.] You've kept someone I care about safe. You've put yourself at risk to protect others in this temple.

Most importantly you've given me your time and that alone is a gift that not everyone in this game has given us. So, threats to kidnap my dog aside, I think it's different.