[ it's strange, hearing the gods talk about whether they regret their choice or not. taka wonders how he might have reacted if he was given the call. his instincts says no, but he supposes it'll probably feel different when you're actually in the situation. ]
...Hikaru told me to give it my all, and so I ascended to try and create the perfect world. My father once told me that I can't apply my ideals or my sense of justice to business, and I still don't know why I couldn't. And I had a promise to my mother to keep.
My wish was to do all of these things and provide the best for the new world.
[It's much more complicated than that but he's not going to bug Taka about it since he's still pretty sure Taka's just here to tell him to stop flirting with Senri.]
I'm hesitant to call it a mistake because it wasn't that. But usually Kyoya will help me with big decisions, or Haruhi will point out how ridiculous it is. It was a split decision that needed more time than I gave it.
I don't regret it. But I've realized things since I've come here that I wished I'd figured out before the ascension. There were things I wished I had done, and people I had seen, but...perhaps as a god...
[...yeah he doesn't know where to go with that thought, so he busies himself with closing the book and pulling it somewhere else. Glad that Taka gets to be one of the people to actually see Tamaki when he isn't composed.]
The staff at the second estate is very nice. They're around often. And I have the other hosts. [Um.] And I have Antoinette. And our customers who come by every day and visit with us at the club.
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Why did you say yes?
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expression says that he is not sure if he is allowed to ask or not ]
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My wish was to do all of these things and provide the best for the new world.
[It's much more complicated than that but he's not going to bug Taka about it since he's still pretty sure Taka's just here to tell him to stop flirting with Senri.]
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... I'm not sure if I could say yes to something like that. Becoming a god seems kind of depressing.
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I don't regret it. But I've realized things since I've come here that I wished I'd figured out before the ascension. There were things I wished I had done, and people I had seen, but...perhaps as a god...
[...yeah he doesn't know where to go with that thought, so he busies himself with closing the book and pulling it somewhere else. Glad that Taka gets to be one of the people to actually see Tamaki when he isn't composed.]
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[ there's a pause. ]
We won't see you guys again after this? Like ever?
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[...] Immortality, I've heard, is immortal. I believe we'll at least be able to check in on you even if you cannot see us.
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[ especially considering so many of the gods genuinely want to interact with others. ]
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It will work out the way that it should. I suppose you could say I have experience in this sort of thing.
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gives him a Look ]
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…I've never been a god before. It's nothing like that.
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[ anyway ]
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[ he doesn't know how to bring it up ]
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uncomfortable ]
Did you mean you're used to being alone.
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The staff at the second estate is very nice. They're around often. And I have the other hosts. [Um.] And I have Antoinette. And our customers who come by every day and visit with us at the club.
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It was a yes or no question.
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Okay.
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I'm sorry. [A pause.] I'm...afraid, I suppose, of what will happen after you all leave.
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That's why it's easier not to make any connections, you know.
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Perhaps. [It's very quiet, like he's actually really considering it.] ...thank you, Takaomi-kun.
[I can't believe Taka just broke Tamaki.]
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he doesn't look at tamaki again when he talks. ]
You're different from me.
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