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...do you think what we did was right? [We. Because even if he had no hand in the actual attack, he's still just as responsible and he knows it.]
...I don't know how to feel about it right now. I thought it was best to go after them and prevent them from acting again, knowing they must have killed Ray-kun, but...
I- was pulled into what I meant to stop, regardless of why I did it.
[he's just kneeling on the ground, hands in his lap.]
I do not think I can say it was right.
I- was pulled into what I meant to stop, regardless of why I did it.
[he's just kneeling on the ground, hands in his lap.]
I do not think I can say it was right.
[His legs are drawn up to his chest, chin resting on his knees and arms wrapped around his shins.]
...I don't even know what's next. Monday, Sasuke's...[No thanks!!!]
... I believe Mizuki-san is willing to save him. They feel it will come at some risk, considering some of us know their alignment, but-- Uchiha and I made a deal with Indulgence. I should be getting something to help protect them out of all this, so I think that will ease their concerns enough.
I do not think I will be able to offer to protect them myself.
[he looks down to the ground, there, silent for a bit before he continues.]
... I would like to return to Piety after this, I think. I intend to give him my sword. Whatever happens next, I-- no longer want to be part of any bloodshed.
I do not think I will be able to offer to protect them myself.
[he looks down to the ground, there, silent for a bit before he continues.]
... I would like to return to Piety after this, I think. I intend to give him my sword. Whatever happens next, I-- no longer want to be part of any bloodshed.
[That statement doesn't surprise him though.] ...you've done everything you could, and you've helped more than your fair share. I think...I'd like to see you end this game on a high note. With Piety. Protecting him. [...] I don't know how I can repay you for everything you've done under my watch though, Ishikirimaru. Your sacrifices mean a lot.
I made a proposal, and he accepted; it seemed he had already created what we were looking for, but Ray-kun had a request in progress when he died. Our agreement was to complete that.
[those last statements, though... he's quiet at first, taking them in, before he joins jack at the window and reaches out to take both of his hands in his own. he's escaped hugs this time, but not contact entirely.]
I feel as if that ought to be my line, after all you have done for us... it's regretful that I cannot just follow you both, or I would do that in an instant.
[and with a small, soft smile, he adds:]
... I will miss you when this all comes to an end, you know.
[he'll miss everyone he's met and liked here, honestly, but... at least he's getting used to having to leave places and times behind.]
[those last statements, though... he's quiet at first, taking them in, before he joins jack at the window and reaches out to take both of his hands in his own. he's escaped hugs this time, but not contact entirely.]
I feel as if that ought to be my line, after all you have done for us... it's regretful that I cannot just follow you both, or I would do that in an instant.
[and with a small, soft smile, he adds:]
... I will miss you when this all comes to an end, you know.
[he'll miss everyone he's met and liked here, honestly, but... at least he's getting used to having to leave places and times behind.]
I accept you without question. Don't ever let yourself doubt that.
...thank you, Ion.
[he doesn't kneel, just in case he needs to like. support him if that big sword tips him over or something? but he does bow his head.]
I'm sorry it ended up coming to this after all. This was what I intended to help stop, and yet...
[he doesn't kneel, just in case he needs to like. support him if that big sword tips him over or something? but he does bow his head.]
I'm sorry it ended up coming to this after all. This was what I intended to help stop, and yet...
No...you were doing what you thought was necessary. I understand.
[He smiles sadly. It seems to be something he's grown familiar with.]
Killing is never a clean action, no matter the intent...as I know you know. There was always bound to be pain and heartache from the moment you began this quest. I'm sorry that it's become such a burden. Please, allow me to carry it with you.
I cannot ask that of you. This should be mine to carry, not yours-- it would not be the first time I have held that burden.
[and he wasn't even with ion when he did any of this-- none of it should be associated with him at all.]
[and he wasn't even with ion when he did any of this-- none of it should be associated with him at all.]
I wouldn't be a very good god if I let you do that. Perhaps it's time you finally allowed yourself the chance to rest those shoulders.
Ion-
[it's been a day. it's been a week-- several weeks, actually-- and ishikirimaru is tired, heart still heavy with guilt from what they've done. he's been keeping this up for so long.
but at those words and that touch, he finally cracks slightly. ishi's a little choked up when he speaks again.]
...all right.
[he is doing his best to ignore the way his eyes water.]
[it's been a day. it's been a week-- several weeks, actually-- and ishikirimaru is tired, heart still heavy with guilt from what they've done. he's been keeping this up for so long.
but at those words and that touch, he finally cracks slightly. ishi's a little choked up when he speaks again.]
...all right.
[he is doing his best to ignore the way his eyes water.]
[after taking some time to see at least piety's wing and catch up with a couple of people... ishi makes his way to the costume hall, wasting little time in finding the appropriate outfit, unlike last time.
even with the invitation given, though, he's not the type to just walk in on anyone; ishi gives the doorframe a little knock, first.]
Sincerity-san. This isn't a bad time, is it?
even with the invitation given, though, he's not the type to just walk in on anyone; ishi gives the doorframe a little knock, first.]
Sincerity-san. This isn't a bad time, is it?
Ah-- as well as can be expected after everything, I think. I have had my injuries seen to already, and-- had most of the conversations that I believe I needed to.
[most. he's still giving catra some space and some time to learn what happened before he tries speaking to her... hopefully going unarmed will keep that from being too much of a confrontation. he doesn't seem to have his sword with him for once.
ishi finds a spot to take a seat, watching him quietly for a moment; it's the first time he's seen his face, he's a little curious.]
What about you?
[most. he's still giving catra some space and some time to learn what happened before he tries speaking to her... hopefully going unarmed will keep that from being too much of a confrontation. he doesn't seem to have his sword with him for once.
ishi finds a spot to take a seat, watching him quietly for a moment; it's the first time he's seen his face, he's a little curious.]
What about you?
It would be something of an unfair thing to yell about, I think, considering you aren't meant to interfere with things. I cannot say I believe she was the most deserving of them, but... I do hope that having her here and alive may help keep anyone else from doing something rash.
[it's a relief not to have anyone dead, but also, they probably should keep an eye out and all.
he props his chin in his palm there, though, head tilted slightly.]
... I do have something else to ask you, though. May I request a proper introduction now?
[it's a relief not to have anyone dead, but also, they probably should keep an eye out and all.
he props his chin in his palm there, though, head tilted slightly.]
... I do have something else to ask you, though. May I request a proper introduction now?
[pretend there's a face icon here i'm stuck at work still and can't get to hem]
We are and aren't meant to do a lot of things, and that hasn't stopped some of you from giving us grief about that before. [he's just saying.] But that's how the game goes. Someone earned something that could do that, and it was their choice to use it on her.
...a proper introduction? You mean, what, my name?
We are and aren't meant to do a lot of things, and that hasn't stopped some of you from giving us grief about that before. [he's just saying.] But that's how the game goes. Someone earned something that could do that, and it was their choice to use it on her.
...a proper introduction? You mean, what, my name?
I'll assume that Senri's spoken with you before I waste time on greetings.
He has, yes. In turn, I will assume you know what I am here to speak to you about.
[ishi looks him over with concern, noting that exhaustion; his tone was not as soft at first, but it eases.]
...I will also try not to take too much of your time. You look like you could use some rest, Ion.
[ishi looks him over with concern, noting that exhaustion; his tone was not as soft at first, but it eases.]
...I will also try not to take too much of your time. You look like you could use some rest, Ion.
...that is what I am here for now. I know what Nito-kun told me you said, but--
I need to know why, Ion.
[he's quiet, but no less intent, meeting that desperation with relative calm.]
I need to know why, Ion.
[he's quiet, but no less intent, meeting that desperation with relative calm.]
[He looks back up and tries to translate that earnestness into his big, young eyes.]
For me, it's never been about leading. The alliances I've made have all been so I could play an active support role without sacrificing the strengths that some of the others have in leading that I don't. Before, I felt I had to win in order to be able to mediate...but now, because the rest of the Pantheon has grown so much, I see that I don't need to win. Giving the win to someone else will give us the same victory, without sacrificing some of the trust that's been built up to this point that may otherwise be sullied in the event of my victory.
[ishi is quiet for several long moments as he takes that all in, hands folded in front of him.]
If that is truly what you want, I need to know how certain you are of this-- because we will need to choose someone else to support, if you honestly feel that it is the best course of action and if we should go along with that. Someone who will also help maintain that harmony among all of you, and who is suited enough to lead.
Personally, I still feel as if your desire for balance would make for the best possible world. I... never considered a second choice, and doing so at such a late point...
[a shake of his head, there.]
I know that I cannot make you desire victory if this is what you are sure would be best, but I also do not know what trust you think might be broken should we still support you in the end.
If that is truly what you want, I need to know how certain you are of this-- because we will need to choose someone else to support, if you honestly feel that it is the best course of action and if we should go along with that. Someone who will also help maintain that harmony among all of you, and who is suited enough to lead.
Personally, I still feel as if your desire for balance would make for the best possible world. I... never considered a second choice, and doing so at such a late point...
[a shake of his head, there.]
I know that I cannot make you desire victory if this is what you are sure would be best, but I also do not know what trust you think might be broken should we still support you in the end.
[When Ishi enters the parlor he'll find a nice set-up of tea and little snacks, the paper roses on their own separate plate as a centerpiece and Beauty in his usual chair waiting for him.]
This is hardly a delay...though what would you need to apologize for, Ishikirimaru-san?
This is hardly a delay...though what would you need to apologize for, Ishikirimaru-san?
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